How are you actually doing today?

I’m good. Trying to figure out which remote part of the world I’d like to visit, maybe stay there.

My lease ends today and I've had two apartments reject my application. So I'm going to be sleeping in my car with my cats tonight. It's all pretty surreal. It really can happen to anyone.

Wondering how long it will take for the world to start world war 3 and which fascist regime were going to be fighting.

I hate not having money..

Burying myself in my work so I don't burst into tears every other moment. Grieving the sudden loss of a cat that was my universe for her whole fuzzy diabolical life. It's been a month, but I knew the second I plucked her from the bushes that she was going to destroy me. We had a good eleven years but fuck, man.
My gf and our surviving cat have been great consolation, but violet had no sense of personal space and I find this void in my orbit to be currently...unbearable.

Ready for the general strike followed by the mass executions of the oligarch class.

Usually takes a couple years for the general public to catch up to where I'm at so biding my time.

Pretty awful. We received our cat's ashes today =/

I had to put my cat down first thing this morning. I've come to terms with it but am distracting myself from the need to go home and clean up his things.

Tired already. Four more years of this shit

I can hardly speak to people anymore. Suppressing my gender for 4 years then finally coming out feels awful. I really thought it would be better. I know my family would have issues but fuck. I have so many thoughts in my head but I can't get more than a word to two before bursting to tears.
Add on top of that the most stressful school schedule I've faced yet and the political climate?

I kinda just want to go to sleep and never wake up to go through more of the same pain the next day.

Very stressed, too much on my plate, exhausted.

Thanks for asking.

How are you?

Not well. I’m really worried about how the US is sliding down into fascist bullshit.

I finally quit drinking in 2025 and I’m doing it for the long run (thanks to the simple method from Allen Carr).

I’ll quit smoking in February as well.

So I feel very good.

Except that I just read that post https://lemmy.zip/post/30949122 about AI and now I feel beaten and angry.

I'm tired and with a few deadlines that will hit me on monday. I need to finish my task or i wont get vacations... so... all the fuel is going to the wrong place.

I have had one of the worst days that I can recall since I left my ex-husband. Woke up early to go to the dentist, they had to numb me which is the worst part IMO. I go home and my mother texts me she’s been in the hospital over 24 hours. I rush to get ready for work and go see her. On my way I hit a crow, it ruins the grill on my VW bug. I get to the hospital and sit with my mom until I have to leave for work. I order a fish sandwich to grab for my dinner and only after getting to my desk at work open my takeout and find they gave me a fried shrimp sandwich instead. My mom lets me know the hospital released her saying they didn’t know what was wrong and prescribed a muscle relaxer. I am a supervisor at work, I had one person call out sick, I’m behind on my duties, and I had a new person start today. Not to mention i started my period last night and was cramping several hours today. the cherry on top was getting the email from credit karma that my score had changed, found it had gone down 30 points because my ex-husband skipped the car payment last month and is now behind 30 days. 🥲 I’m pleading, what have I done to deserve all of this? I hope tomorrow is better, and I hope even more that my mothers health improves.

Not fucking great.

Nearing a psychotic amount of rage directed at the elites whose sole desire is to grind the rest of use beneath their feet.

Rip and tear, brothers.

Upvoted for asking.

Meh.

Stressed as all hell. My job depends on the things Trump is currently trying to block. If that goes, I dunno how to pay the mortgage.

So I'm exhausted, haven't slept well in a week. Otherwise okay. I've got my family and my pets. Friends to play games with.

Really anxious. Reading too much news

I have two kids in college and have always been optimistic about their future, but the next couple years are critical to forming the world they emerge as adults into. It’s not encouraging

Pretty down I realized today the reason Star Trek being made today is not aspirational like old trek was. At first I thought it was bad writers not getting star trek but now I understand, the writers can't write aspirational when they don't see a future deep in their heart.

Becase deep down we all know we can never make it to that world with peace and a bright future. We will hate and kill each other till the climate wipes us all out and the only life in the solar system is microbes on Mars.

I feel like I've been internally screaming for several weeks straight.

Been sleeping the majority of the last 36 hours in between emptying my stomach, so not too hot. I really should not go into work today but I probably will anyway.

I recently made a decision to transfer colleges in order to save my mental health. This meant I’d have to take on a few student loans, but with FAFSA it still felt manageable, and it has significantly improved my life.

However, If financial assistance from the government drops, the chances I will be able to afford school long enough to graduate drop significantly too.

I’m not super jazzed about that; though, I still think the transfer was worth it.

Oh yeah, also, I just recently got medicated for ADHD and it’s what’s let me start to pull my life together, but adderall might get banned so… rip me.

Maybe I’ll take up smoking lol. I mean that as a joke, but what a world when clinically safe, prescribed meds might get banned but literal cancer causing, heavy metal filled, habit forming drugs are going to be legal forever…

Cheers mates, couldn’t have asked for a better seat to watch the final fall of America and possibly the rest of the world. Good luck to all of you who’ll last longer than me.

I am great, it is the lunar new year and I am celebrating it with my family.

I made vegan fried rice for them. Most asian haven't had vegan fried rice, because typically fried rice involves lard and egg. However, they loved the vegan fried rice so much that my cousin asked my aunt to recreate it tonight.

I currently work as a postdoc in biomedical research, so my line of work was directly in the line of fire of recent Trump administration nonsense... Not great.

Beyond this though, I'm just impressed at how almost delusional my boss and some of my lab members has been. Lab PI/group leaders are responsible for bringing in grants, yet they don't seem to even care about the fact that almost all grant reviews are paused (and some of their grants are due early Feb!)... Not to mention they seem almost happy about RFK and Bhattacharya; I do not approve of such behavior as a researcher... Especially since another student in the lab is fucking suffering from long COVID-induced chronic fatigue. I don't understand how could some other ppl in the lab be so insensitive

To be fair, I've been essentially "fired" from the lab anyway. Not actually fired, but was on an 1-year contract and PI refused to renew (and it's more difficult to fire someone than not renewing contract in Illinois law anyway). Pretty shitty behavior but I guess I should have expected a newer PI to not know how to properly lead a lab... Partly due to that, I've started applying for jobs in Europe two months ago and have just recently started getting interviews. All of them are scheduled early morning for me, I'm not a morning person, and at least one or two have been somewhat disrespectful so... At least I'm hoping to get at least one offer I hope?

Also am worried about selling some large possessions (furniture, hobbyist items) since I'm probably leaving the US soon. So a bit stressed recently between work and personal matters

All in all, I'm... surprisingly calm for the amount of bullshit I need to deal with. No ideal why. Maybe it's just the power of video games lol

I'm tired has a busy few days I was horrifically ill at the end of last year which I'm recovering from

I mean I'm okay for now. The world is burning but none is affecting me yet (that doesn't make it okay, I'm just trying be real about my situation) and I semi-recently landed a new job where people seem to appreciate me. It looks like we are weirdly very well positioned to weather the current storms and I got an email from management essentially saying "I don't care who's in charge, we are still a woke company". Family is good. We have food, housing, and our health for now. It could be a lot worse. I'm sorry to anyone going through tough times. I wish I could fix it for you.

Edit: I gotta amend this a bit just to vent. I do increasingly feel isolated and alone. I have my immediate family (wife and kids) which is great. I highly recommended it if you can find someone. However, my wife is mostly apolitical and just tries not to think about things like that. I'm sure that reads bad but I'm sympathetic. She didn't ask for any of this and is just trying to live her life. We're also not into a lot of the same things. That actually would be nice if I had other people to share my interests with. Its nice sometimes to have things that are your own in a relationship. I've lost nearly everyone else to maga and culture war BS. I catch myself doing that thing that elderly people do where they talk too long to customer service people (not about politics, just small talk). I have no community and I don't know how to find that

I'm okay, thank you for asking. Work was a little frustrating, but it will pass. My GF's life turned a corner, which makes me happy. And I saw Sonic. I'm not great, but today was a 'nice' day.

Terrible. I'm about to head to the piece of concrete I sleep on at night. Gotta somehow make food and mysteriously appear tomorrow.

My anxiety almost acted up again today and my afternoon was kind of sucky during that. But, I got it under control after an hour so I just went back to normal disassociation. Not happy, sad, or anything. Just...nothing. How are you?

Scared in an existential sense but materially I am doing ok. Recently changed my major to history because I enjoy it more than I enjoyed physics and it has made my studies into something I actively want to engage in. It's nice. I will be fleeing this country but that won't end the dread as unfortunately America affects everyone.

I'm doing great! Thank you for asking. I recently woke up from a nap, and now I'm hungry! Though I'm not entirely sure what it is I want to eat... How are you? 😃

Today was a bastard. Helped a bunch of people but now I’m mentally exhausted. Family has been great and I’ve got a cat sleeping on me. Couldn’t have ended better.

Haven't been sleeping super well and my back is burning because of it. Stressed to high heaven about rent but luckily not awake enough for a panic attack yet

I'm full, have eaten soup and dumplings at my parents in law place and yesterday also so much tasty food.

Thanks for asking how are you?

I am very hungry and dehydrated but I cannot leave my bed

(Champagne problems warning) Was goddamn great until I pulled a calf muscle playing soccer tonight and now probably can't ski on Friday and Monday, despite our mountains FINALLY getting a nice dump.

Admittedly, my problems are nothing compared to the children who mined the cobalt for my phone but godfuckingdamnit.

Past two weeks have been such a roller coaster that I don't even know. Thankfully I have therapy in the morning so I hope I can get the help I need to get this sorted. Things seem to be happening back to back to back that it feels, at times, that I don't get a chance to breathe.

okayish. didn't get enough sleep, because i poured me a big soft drink yesterday evening and decided to watch shows until i drank it all up, even though i slowly exceeded waaaayy past bedtime. i regret nothing!

Pissed I found out I lost 700 in crypto 🤦 and it was my fault

I feel fine. Sure, there’s lots of stuff to do, but it’s ok. Just one thing at a time…

Up and down. Actually lots of things are falling into place, and a few "end points reached" are proving to be... just new starting points.

What to say, need to get my knee in order tough. After last marathon it is still giving me issues and i am fed up to wait and want to go back running....

The bad thoughts have been successfully buried for now

I had a hackday at work where I experimented a bit with python (I haven't worked in it professionally before)... I translated a package I maintain into it and I really loathe a lot of the language's design decisions. It's still fun to experiment though so I had fun. On the other hand I'm planning to fly into the US next week and I've been semi-nervous as a skirt wearing non-conforming man... but now I'm legitimately uncertain if shit like the TSA, CBP and air travel will work with the "Hey, anyone want to resign" memo. If it wasn't for an important family event I'd absolutely cancel my shit.

Just finished my calculus exam and am reveling in the freedom. Well not too much because I have linear algebra next week, but it's the small things.