How are you?

WHY am I?

Stressed. It feels like the world is falling apart around me. It's like we're speed running our own destruction. I'm ready for some peace.

I feel like I have a bright future ahead.

I have gone full circle, why worry about the inevitable destruction of the empire you live in when you can love the destruction itself. Also I may get to kill a lot of people I fucking hate if I get lucky, how I wish to strangle the life out of men like Ken Ham.

Not at all. Thanks for asking.

The horrors persist, But so do I

I'm quitting all my jobs and will be unable to afford housing very soon. (again)

But at least I will be able to breathe.

I've noticed a correlation with me skipping yoga, meditation, avoiding excessive phone usage and my stress levels rising, sleep worsening and mood dips.

Thanks for the check up, I'll try to take my health more serious!

Thank you. Yeah, when I think about it, I'm basically okay. Could be better, but I'm going to keep going and not let perfect be the event of good.

How're you?

If I don't check social media or think about the horrors and unchecked injustices that are going on in the world then I'm OK.

There are times when I hang out with someone and I'll be unbelievably happy for a couple days afterwards. Then I begin to feel a bit sad and unmotivated for a few days after that because I want more of that happiness they gave me. That kind of happiness high can be a bit intense.

I have only a small handful of friends these days but the ones I have now are able to show me trust, appreciation and love so easily. Something that has not been very common in my life in general.

I just keep reminding myself that there are people who genuinely care about me as I am and it gets a bit easier to motivate myself again. Little by little.

Also helps that my parents stopped watching the 24 hour news channel so much. Not hearing the news has saved a bit more of my shrinking sanity.

No. I'm pretty burnt out.

Everything I read on burnout says that the best (only?) way to treat it is to reduce or remove whatever is causing such chronic, disproportionate stress. Unfortunately, much of my burnout is caused by the most basic aspects of living (partly because I have disabilities that make it hard to reliably fulfill my basic needs, even with support).

Given that cutting out the bad stuff isn't an option, I've been trying to instead add more good stuff to my life, in hopes that it will increase my capacity and thus reduce my relative level of burnout. I'm so tremendously tired though. I'm trying so hard because I do want to live, and there are things I feel I can offer the world. However, sometimes, in my exhaustion, I find myself thinking wistfully about the depression I felt as a young adult — it was simpler when I genuinely and wholeheartedly wanted to die. In some ways, it was easier to be hopeless and merely staying alive for other people.

I'm just tired.

not great TBH tanks for asking. no one asks me anymore. its nice to read. even tho its not personally directed itll do.

My long time girlfriend that cheated on me and got pregnant is solely confiding in me because she found out the other guy cheated on her. I'm an innocent and relatively quiet guy. I feel like I'm being pulled into a black hole.

I'm not ok, but I'm gonna be alright.

Nope. But I think I'm taking a mental health day today.

Going to the cystic fibrosis clinic today, I hate going to the doctor but it’s an upgrade because I used to have to go to the transplant clinic instead which would require way more invasive tests but I’m still nervous. But aside from all the shitty stuff going on in the world things have been ok for me, my daughter is home for the summer from college and we have been really relishing our together time

I think I'm doing well all things considered, thanks!

The only reason I can't speak for certainty is because of my anxiety from well.. gesters at what's happening to my country. This anxiety is also making my executive distinction worse which is probably my biggest day-to-day challenge at the moment.

Functionally yes mentally and emotionally no. I just got word this week that our bosses are taking away our hybrid work schedule and making us come back into the office full time. I like my work and coworkers well enough but it's not enough to keep me in an employer that's abusive. Now all I can think about is the next round of surprise layoffs that are sure to follow. Last year was absolute hell always feeling watched and expendable. This year is looking to much of the same. I'm already looking for another job and kicking myself in the butt for putting it off for so long.

Everything in my house is breaking 🙃

Depends on the mornings. Some days good, some days filled with dread!

Fun…

it's been really hard, for almost a year... but I got some news last week that released a lot of weight for me.

i still have a lot to work thru, but I'm working on accepting what's in front of me and the choices I made that got me here.

sincerely hope all the homies here are ok, or can find a path towards it.

No.

Pretty shite, honestly. Going to be a bit of a piece of shit until Friday at 5, at which point I'll be disappearing from society for a few days

Hangin in, my homie, hangin in :)

It couldn't be going worse, Keith.

not even close but at least lately a bit better than last couple months

Not really but I'll persevere, there is a lot of good in my life.

Well, I resigned from my job and enrolled in a famous university for another degree.

Also applied, interviewed, and was hired for a ptj - all in the same day.

Yeah. Fine. You ok?

Ok is a strong word. But then others have it way worse, so I don't want to complain. All things considered I am quite lucky. Gotta try and make the best out of it, right?

Well, after watching the United States trick liberals into being upset at Russia and basically ignore the fact that in 2014 the United States sponsored a coup in Ukraine and got rid of the Democraticly elected president and then also, we are actively committing a genocide in Gaza. And now we have a populist right-wing fascist in office because liberalism has failed and capitalism is in crisis. The expansion of the dragnet and the loss of civil liberties in the United States. The fact that airplane airliners are now going to start flying planes as nukes are dropping because they took out nuclear insurance. The dollar is constantly being devalued and all the money that you make today and save will be worth nothing. And in the town I live, I see Hooverville's with tons of homeless people. I mean, the sugar-coated nothingness is really just not for me. You know, I just like to look at reality, even though it's horrible, I still like to look at it. And like praying doesn't do anything for me, because like god isn't real. Oh, and let's not forget about the need, I guess, nowadays to protect ourselves from nukes from space. Because, you know, the United States escalated this whole situation and now we're in a new Cold War. And also, Trump's golden dome is not going to protect certain areas of the United States. So, if you're like, oh, that sounds like a great idea. Why not keep us safe? Well, first off, the Iron Dome is not perfect. And second, the Golden Dome is not going to protect certain areas in the United States. Also, pretty much all the money goes to the military industrial complex, and not to health care, or anything that makes any fucking sense. And here we are now, going to spend money on a goddamn fucking dome. I'd rather fucking just roll the goddamn dice and just provide some fucking health care and decent fucking wages and if they drop nukes on us fuck it fuck it I'm ready to go anyways. Like, what fucking country in the world has dropped a nuke on a civilian population? That's fucking right. The God damn United States. Honestly, whoever they point at goddamn weapon at is probably asking for it. The fucking American Empire is a ratchet ass hellhole. I guess you would say, well that doesn't sound like anything's happening to you, you're just worrying about things. But I mean, if the freight trains coming the freight trains coming, stuff like this is actually sometimes worse, you know. Like, the lack of emotional intelligence. I mean, to be honest, no one's doing okay. For many reasons, either they are incredibly ignorant to the problems of today, or they're being affected by the problems of today. I don't know. It's just like phony pop psychology nonsense. This wholesome hope core nonsense. And now I gotta figure out how to block this stupid feed.

OK!