I'm depressed AF anyone want to chat shit in this thread to distract me?

A few days ago I was sitting in a public park. There were no other people close to me in the park. The sun was shining in a mostly cloudless sky and some of the taller trees were casting shadows on the grass. A gust of wind would blow through and the sounds of all the leaves from the trees made that pleasant rushing sound before ebbing away with the retreat of the wind. The smell of Earth was strong, like freshly turned soil. There were birds and insects, unseen, but loudly calling to each other oblivious to me in the park with them. I heard a commotion from the underbrush not far away, and see three squirrels chattering and giving chase to one another. It was very pleasant!

I wish I could have packaged this moment in the park in a bottle and give it to you to experience right now. A bottle of peace and contentment, as long as you don't mind the chatty squirrels.

That's a really nice comment I've saved it. Genuine thanks 😊

Coming to this fairly late, so I hope that means things have eased up for you.

But, fwiw, I'm happy when I see a post you've made, even one like this.

That's made my day thanks mate 😀
- Same. You make a positive impact on a lot of people. Thank you.

Hi! I saw your post about moderating and I think it's cool that you decided to carry that community for everyone. Thanks for doing that!

I've been taking care of my ancient wizened pet rabbit. She's like 90 in bunny years (considering large breeds like flemish giants don't live as long) but here's an old and young picture of her huge dumbo ears.

I go to a restaurant store for her because they sell giant bags of cilantro and she mows through it among other things.

I've also been running a tabletop rpg system I wrote and built a setting for, and it's going pretty well! It's kind of a science fantasy thing and players are all humans, but they can be terran or from a colony world we build out together. That entails negotiating what adaptations the colonists originally gave their children to thrive on that world and so we ended up with a huge strongman character from a hot high gravity world for example. He has heat venting scales that look like a bush viper all over him and he's the only one enjoying the desert they're currently traversing while I throw creatures at them like a tamer version of Scavenger's Reign.

Thanks vertigo it's been a lot of work but the members have been great so it's all good. Your bunny is adorable! How old is she?
- She'll be 10 next year! I just had a friend lose his rabbit at 13 and I hope she makes it that far healthy enough to have a good quality of life. She's a much better pet for me than the iguana or tarantula I had when I was a kid, but I also like dogs. I think rabbits are my favorite now.

I'm lying in bed waiting for my partner to finish in the bathroom before we pass out together. It's late.

Tomorrow someone is coming to pick up a washing machine I'm giving away. I hope they ask about the free fridge as well. I hope they're not weird.

Fly halfway across the country in a couple days to our new digs. Looks boring af. I'll have to go scouring the neighbourhood for props to lift so I can get some indoor plants going.

Glad you're getting rid of the washing machine it's a nightmare to take anywhere yourself. When I moved I was lucky the person I sold the house to wanted my fridge, it wouldn't survive a move so that would have been a nightmare to get rid of
- Would you not need the appliances at your next house?

Also depressed, feel trapped by reality.

Ope, there goes gravity!

Anything you want to discuss?

I feel you. I have been pretty low the last two weeks, but not low enough to go see my drs, yet. My kids are what keep me here. I feel bad saying that, and how other people could take that, but it's what stops me.

I am a few months medicated now to manage my depression and AuDHD as a middle aged guy. Hyper focusing on my mental health is getting pretty draining and I'm agonising so much over the negative. I've found talking helps, but just struggling with the day to day work / life at the moment.

I'm terrified of having another breakdown and there are so many possibilities to process. Fuck my brain.

Saying that though, I've got to stop being so hard on myself too, and think of how far I have come over the last two years in this journey. I should be proud of the changes I've made in myself and the impact that has had on everyone around me.

I'm pretty sure I can do this, but then , the world is just fucking insane right now, who knows what the fuck this rollercoaster of life will throw at us tomorrow.

I hope you are ok friend. We need to look out for each other. I am trying.

Edit: On second thoughts, maybe detailing my own mental health wasn't the distraction you were after? If then, sorry mate!

Bit over this cold weather though. Our houses in Aus are fucked. 21°C/10°C min/max the last few weeks, with periods of rain or just blue skies. Never been this fucking cold in my life. Maybe it's my old age and the combo of loosing a bit of weight lately, fuck fuck, it's cold. Wish my house was better insulated from the weather.

Honestly it really helps I feel less alone. Sadly there's nothing going on, it's literally just depression is bad today for no reason. And I'm British so 10c is mild to me! In Scotland its sunbathing weather haha
- I have been to Scotland a couple times for work, and yeah, cold, but your buildings are made for it from what I saw, and it was pretty comfy in most of the places I visited and worked, but suppose electricity bills would be high and that may not be the experience for all?
  I have a young Scotsman working for me over here, migrated about two years ago. Said the other day if he hadn't gone home over Christmas he would have been complaining!
  You get used to the warm weather and definitely helps my mood when the suns shining! The >40° days are still a struggle though!
I've got to say though, I do like wearing more layers and more fitting clothes, feels like a nice change to my previous baggy clothing style!
(I need to try my best to remember the positives!)

Sorry to hear your feeling that way. I hope it's not do something crazy level depression. I had a bout of that yesterday. I packed my bags told my family I was going to the laundry mat, actually did that, then drove 150 miles across my state to get a bottle of water and a Slim Jim. I was dead set on driving across the country but it was raining hard for hours. I stopped and spent 2 hours crying in a rest stop. I decided to turn around. Didn't get home until 3 something this morning.

I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time today Lady. Depression sucks 🤍

Hopefully this pic of my parents' floof monster will put a smile on your face!

Thanks Klem! And floof can only be a good thing

I lived in a neighborhood that was not far off from some open nature (a lost deer was in the rose garden last month). I went through a period where I had a ton of close encounters with skunks. I mean, no one has been up close with skunks this much in a suburban area without getting sprayed.

Once, I rounded the corner of my house and was face to face with one heading the opposite direction. We both ran from each other. Another time, I was outside smoking in the narrow space between my place and a fence between me and the next building late at night. A skunk casually walked by me from behind me. I couldn't believe it; the space was about two and a half feet and it was practiacally brushing my leg.

And there was the clan of skunks raiding a trash bin one time. And the skunk walking through a neighbor's yard early morning. Just skunks all the time. That's not even counting the almost-certainly-rabid skunk that chased me and a friend, snarling (we saw it out during daytime a day later, so for sure rabies, according to animal control).

I eventually started jingling my keys in my hand any time I was walking around after dusk. I haven't run into a skunk since.

Hope you feel better.

I'm British so to me skunks are cuddly loving creatures that just smell. But of course, they're not. And I am feeling a bit better thanks 😊

it was hot and humid overnight, the apartment was horrible... it's raining now, but alas, the strong wind keeps me from opening the window in the bedroom for a fresh breeze, there's too much rain coming in. but at least it is raining, I love the sound of the rain.

I'm laying in bed writing this and my voidfloof came to lay with me - I guess he isn't bothered by my body heat lol

Humid is the worst heat! It's just so heavy. I love the sound of rain too, and yes floofs want love no matter what

Sprite that's such a nice comment! I've saved it for future reference. I can't take the credit though, there's brilliant people in womensstuff and lemmy as a whole and Dandelion has been amazing.
- Piggybacking in this comment. I really appreciate all your posts. Every day one of your posts makes me smile and I share it with my family. Thank you!

I exercised for the first time in like 4 years today, 30 minutes on an elliptical machine, and I'm mad about it because i enjoyed it, and now I'm sore. I'm probably going to have a fantastic night of sleep because of it too.

grumbly curmudgeon noises

That's excellent work! 4 years is a long time and getting back to it is hard. Well done
- I got like 2 hours of sleep last night (or i guess in the morning?) and everything hurts! Gonna do that shit again tomorrow and complain some more.

It's 26°C (79°F) here in Toronto.

https://weather.gc.ca/en/location/index.html?coords=43.655%2C-79.383

(10:04 AM EDT. 18 June 2025)

Holy shit that's hot! How are you with the heat? I'm awful with it
- Adaption: fans, taking it easy, maybe a walk in the evening, and they say it will rain.
  I suppose the plant-life like it.

Old cat on the left (Buttons, 16y) and new cat on the right (Mizu, approx 1y) getting along... sort of.

My life is garbage and I'm struggling to keep a roof over my head. Want to trade stories?

Reading words of sympathy from people I don't know has never made me feel good. Listing grievances against reality to randos on the internet is a lot more amusing in my opinion.

The cat continues to not understand going into the bath is dangerous when the human is also there. I stopped her this time but lord. You'd think she'd be more nervous after going in once. Weird cat.

I'm trying to find a method of meal prep that doesn't do my head in. I only have energy sometimes so it's frustrating. I have next week planned so we'll see how it goes.

seeing how many people replied warms me also depressed heart.

I'm putting myself in they list of you want to chat. take care mate

I hope it's passed, and you are feeling better now. Elbow have a new album out, it's pretty good. It finally started raining here, our dry season was too dry and it's so good to have the rains most days now.

What do you want? And what do you need? I know motivation is a different thing but is there any one thing that can help you stabilise?

Go out and find someone else to help. Walk a neighbor's dog

Sitting online isn't going to help as much as getting out of the house will.

OP: if you manage to get the will to do this, please come back and tell us how it went! I am sure as hell we all want to hear the story however how trivial it may be.
- I just went on a heroic mission to the local shop and bought cat food! Best I can do today

I was watching inside out 2 the other day. They got the scene where anxiety disables everything. It’s going so fast but getting nowhere.

I've never seen it is it any good?
- Yeh. Makes you cry. Go climb in bed and watch it. Great when you are feeling down.