I usually associate that more with anxiety, which I don't have, because I can sometimes short circuit the bad thought spirals by switching to the latest hyperfocus. Like playing through doom levels in my mind's eye.
I play music to do this. As in, I perform it on my guitar, sometimes while singing. Performing music uses your entire brain, so if you're doing it right there's almost no room for anything else while you do it. Feels like a cheat code for my brain.
For me it's not anxiety (although I have certainly dealt with that). My brain is just always on as long as I'm awake. Shifting from topic to topic. And if something is on my mind, even if it's not bad or anxiety inducing, it just doesn't go away until my subconscious decides to move on or I find some way to distract myself.
The only thing that stops this is weed. I gives me some peace and quiet inside my head. It's p. sweet.
I suspect not as constantly exhausting. That's the thing that I don't think we realize about neurotypicals and that they don't realize about us. Just how much work it is running our fucking brains in such a "chaotic" manner.
There are definitely people who find great benefit in medication. I am one of them. But for me, my methods of thinking don’t change, I just don’t hate myself because of them.
The flip suggestion that “the right medication” would “cure” neurodivergency is a major part of the problem that ND people experience.
Kind of a big topic so I'm not sure where to focus.
A friend of mine has ADHD and we were talking about it. Specifically about why she always has dishes in her sink. She said what happens is she goes to do the dishes. She'll wash one. Realize it's the dish she had popcorn in, and she needs to clean the popcorn machine. She puts down the dish, and goes over to the popcorn machine. She goes to unplug it, and realizes the power strip it's plugged into is kind of shitty. She's looking up new power strips online, and no dishes are washed.
Contrary, I do my dishes. I wash one. I realize it's the one I had popcorn in. I note I should clean that, too, later. I wash the next dish. I wash the next dish. I continue until the dishes are clean. I'm thinking about stuff but I'm still on task.
I hear this exact tendency is why autDHD people are good with homesteading type stuff, or just general outdoor maintenance (not like mechanical stuff but like gardening and stuff)
There’s simply so much to do, and it never really has a completion state, that if you lose focus midway through a task and start another, your ultimate goals are still being furthered.
Sometimes I wonder if my "advanced" meditation skills from a decade of training is just what neurotypicals always experience when they meditate, even with just like 10 times of "practice".
That’s interesting take on this. I never thought about meditation in this context. If I am able to meditate anytime it ends up being a list making session in my head
What I do then is to observe myself making the list, or to observe the thoughts involved in making the list as they swim past me.
This could lead to an infinite chain, where I then observe myself observing and so on. But with practice and methods beyond normal thought and expression, that can fade into nothingness.