I was a bit lucky this morning! I couldn't get to sleep until I think about 4:30am. I have a 'work from the office' 7:30am Tuesday alarm (earlier than my every other day work remotely 8:45am alarm) which I was dreading so I could head in today and present my months in the making document to the team. Woke up without the aid of an alarm which didn't bode well.. 8:40am. Seems I disabled my Tuesday alarm last week because I wasn't going in but forgot to turn it back on.
The lucky part is my phone also had a Teams message on it from the boss saying he's unwell and won't be in today, so I don't need to go in anyway! Now I'm going to require all of the world's coffee.
The economy is fucked. The environment is fucked. Everything is fucked. But my attitude towards it these days is pretty much is "meh". At some point you just become very uninterested in hearing the same bad news over and over.
holy shit - visitors arrived at my neighbours next door, and I swear to fUCKING Alanis if they start singing Katy Perry again, I’m going to TP their welcome mat.
edit: EVERY MONDAY WTF
edit edit: this was my rant posted in yesterdays dt, but they just arrived so here it is too, electric boogaloo
Things for my move are all set in stone now. Neither I or the org I'm moving to are allowed to back out now. Since CP have set a date, I WILL move whether I'm happy about it or not. They really have found a way to suck all of the excitement out of it, I was pretty neutral on it until I'm told I no longer have a choice and in 12 days I'll be moving somewhere I've never even seen yet
Day 17 of exercise program and day 2 of ten day tummy exercise challenge completed. Pizza base day at work. I'm craving sushi for some reason. It's an itch I don't mind scratching! Got Mr Peeler to watch tummy exercise video last night. Hopefully it inspires him. He is overweight and has back trouble and heart trouble, so he needs to start some manageable exercise program so he doesn't get put off. He seems to only want to sit around and smoke weed about it, which imo isn't helping at all. I tell him, too much of a good thing man! Weed is not a performance enhancing drug, and it's definitely not a motivational aid in my experience. I gave up years ago. Weed is part of his identity though, I don't think he'd know what to do with himself. (Sighs) Have a wonderful day everyone! Get some of that sunshine if you can!
this sTUPId company emailed me this morning, said they're sorry about not getting back to me last week, they had some structural changes and put hiring on hold, but they'll get back to me this arvo with an outcome. Sounded promising, I wrote back 'thanks looking forward to it' blah blah blah
BRUH! BRUHBRUH
they did not get back to me they did not get back to me they did not get back to me
I'm going to make a sate to go with my stir fry using stuff I already have at home. I know it won't be the same as the delectable dream inducing I don't know what drugs they put in it from my local Vietnamese shop but all I'm hoping for is it to be edible. I'm very excited.
I've been feeling flat this morning, both physically and mentally. Ended up queuing a bunch of songs together that elicit a strong emotional response and had a good cry. Maybe that's all I needed. I'm thankful to be working from home today, and with the Mrs out for the morning too... gives me a bit of space :)
Having super intense anxiety dreams at the moment. This morning it was waking up and being unable to walk properly, staggering into the bathroom to see that my eyes were bulging and my irises were fully blown, and thinking that my husband hadn't called an ambulance.
Literally the first thing I did when I actually got up was check my eyes in the mirror. Totally fine. Wish these dreams would stop.
Last day of work for the week and I am sah excited! Rental inspection tomorrow, then off to Perth to see my sister and LIZZO!! Gonna try and get over to Rottnest Island on Thursday for funsies, then take a walk around Kings Park and my sister’s friends have organised a wine and dumpling walk on Saturday night. Taking the bf with me with an extra surprise to start the trip off and I don’t think I’ve been this excited about something for quite a while!
Tomorrow I return to the office after 3.5yrs, if I die in the night I shall take it as Gods mercy.
Also, shout out to the utter brilliance that is my upper management thinking dragging us in for full rotations without toeing us in first isn't going to have a single mental affect on anyone.
One of the things I hate about ADHD, is that I have time paralysis/waiting time. Like, I want to do things before I have to leave for work... but I just... can't. I hate when people say ADHD is a superpower. It's not... it's really not.
time to play "are things actually hectic" or "is my brain just trying to make things this way?". I get the sense life is only as hard as you make it, trouble with my anxiety is it LIKES things hard. twists things into problems, forces me to take positions on things. I grew up where everything is a fight, so it tries to make everything a fight. And every now and then I need to stop breath and try untwist the knot my brain has tied itself into,
Came home from work and Mr Peeler's cooked dinner! Yay! My God, that doesn't happen often, and I was very very appreciative. The Mini Peelers had a sports day and the elder Mini came first in the 200 metres! That never happened before! The junior Mini got 2 second place ribbons! That never happened before! I'm in shock and need a lie down! Proud of everyone today!
So my cats always sit on my laptop I use for youtubes when I'm trying to sleep. It's frustrating. I've started to listen to podcasts instead as I can set a sleep timer on the phone.
Does anyone know of any sleep inducing factual kind of podcasts to send me to sleep? I currently use useless information and isaac arthur, but if there are any cat info ones that would be amazing as I'd only been going to sleep to cat info youtubes.
In other news, it's been a lazyish day but I filed my tax return and did some other paperwork and life admin stuff that I've been waiting for the right time to do and now is the right time.
Also back into playing minecraft and moved the music mixer which a lengthy task and the cats spend too much time on it and I often have to move them off it or one of them sleeps on it. Some more cables and joiners so the synth oututs reach it I'm about to ebay and hopefully that finishes the new setup for good. Cats now have a new comfortable place to sleep which is right beside my desk so that's a win. Kitten already napping on it.
Damn, photo is not working; json error. Who is Json?
Edit: Photo now working
Image is of a large black kitten with shiny fur asleep on a brown blanket which is on a desk.
The weather is a bit nice at the moment - actual sunshine!
Tomorrow looks like it will be good too, and now that school holidays are over I might take advantage of it to go in to the museum & the systems garden at Melbourne Uni. I think I can get free museum entry with my student ID, it will be great if I can because it means I can take my time and come back later without feeling like I have to see everything in one trip.
I've got a Myki loaded on the phone, hopefully everything works ok. It's been years since I've been on a train!
Ok another post. The birds for cats video is allowing me a lot more typing and gaming time without the need to constantly twirl a pencil or move them gently to somewhere away from the screen and keyboard.
Below we're talking about how everything is fucked.
So I'm going to leave this..
Imagine you're staring at the pyramids, rome, machu picchu, sumeria / mesopotamia... countless others. they all just upped and left. You're staring at this achievement.. and you're like nup.. I'm out, imma gonna just disappear with the rest of my homies. It was that bad. and that took far longer to build than what we have today..
Forgot about the vacuuming but progress has been made toward the to do and to learn lists. Not big leaps but feels good to have at least ticked off small tasks according to plan. Hope I can keep it up.
Trying to decide what to wear for work tomorrow, it's not like overly crucial but my brain is empty lol is jeans, and a jumper with a Dickey collar or is it jeans and long shirt with a cardigan or is it my sweater dress with a collar? Halp
The personal stories where people open up to me at work are amazing. (And the level of trust they put in me when they share it)
Had a man in his 60s talking about how he's working on his mental health for the first time in his life after his divorce and death of a parent.
It's still really raw for him and he still trusted me with his story. I love that I can work in this blue collar environment and have interactions like this.
Took kidcalhoon1 to her regular osteo tonight. Neck pain, rib pain, back pain.... Real hard to watch her wince on the table for most of the session. Scoliosis can go jump currently.... Swings and roundabouts I guess.
I’m not sure if it was something I did or ate or if it was the way I slept as I was having a nap.
Sorry for what might be bad image descriptions.
I’ve been burping for the last few hours like I’m full of gas and my left side hurts now. It was starting to get really bad but I popped some panadol and I’ve got a heat pack now.
Never had this happen before so not sure what’s going on. Hope it doesn’t last much longer.
Picture of a large bowl with rice, mixed vegetables with homemade sate sauce and extra sauces and Southern style popcorn chicken. It was very tasty. The man has lunch tomorrow.
Vegetables are in the oven roasting. Mushroom sauce is slowly simmering, just awaiting the addition of a bit of cream. Steak ready to cook. Just a few more minutes to wait so the timing is right. All systems are go for dinner.
Edit: dinner is done! The poor steak is just about crowded off the plate!
Image: steak, mushroom garlic cream sauce, and vegetables. Many, many vegetables.
Is it just me or are a car headlights a lot brighter these days. It can't just b improperly installed aftermarket junk because about half the cars blind me.
I was going through some old photos and found some of RustyDog from many years ago. He looks so young! They must have been taken not long after I first got him, he still has a bit of puppy in him.
Either my upstairs or downstairs neighbour is working from home today and has their Outlook notifications on loud. And I have a goddamn Pavlovian anxiety reaction every time the "new email" sound comes through. Even though I've turned mine off for years so I know it's not an email for me. This is very exhausting.