Google something called bitcoin and buy a few.
I heard of bitcoin for a while, but by the time I decided to get some they cost $20 each. No way I was shelling out that much.
Well, now it's over for sure. /s
I'd tell myself all of this depression and anxiety you're going through isn't normal or something you just need to deal with. You're mentally ill and you need medication and therapy.1
21-year-old me:
As soon as 60 year old me from the future comes along and tells me how to unfuck everything up, I'll pass it along to 21 year old me
Life gets easier as you grow more emotionally mature, so start working toward that goal now. Coulda had more years of loving myself. But then I wouldn't be who I am today and I wouldn't change anything about who I became. Well, maybe the alcoholism, but at least I'm a happy drunk.
Don't drink
Without driving
yo mama's milk
I'd just kick myself in the nuts. No explanation, 21-year-old me would have thought he deserved it.
No, you haven't figured life out yet.
Listen to older ones and have mature friends.
Be happy before getting into any relationship.
How much time do i have? I have some coaching i would like to do.
Stay away from partying and you'll be good kid.
I would say to myself, just go through with self-deletion. Save yourself from the grief and hardship that awaits. It really only gets worse from here on out. And the urge to do it will only grow.
Dang, hope you're ok.
Shit does suck but you will be surprised at your agency, looking back, however small.
I pray you mean self deletion in a digital or a metaphysical context. In which case, would recommend. Everyone needs a level of ego death to thrive. If struggling, then there are books you can read, activities to experience, drugs you can take and interesting people you can meet (therapy is great for ego death) to help shake your framing of reality.
Sending you good wishes stranger. And my fav quote recently.
"If you look for the light, you may sometimes find it. If you look for the dark, that's all you'll ever see."
