Mum's in the ED tonight after her fall 6 days ago (well 2 falls in two weeks). I'm super worried. Delayed concussion ABI IV (she only has vision in one eye and now the other is gone) this is not good.
Her life is about to change drastically and it's going to be an awful adjustment for her and I just feel so sad.
i'm not sure how to go about this.
An unsurprising day (mostly) offline. It's been good, but I still make choc chip bikkies at 9:30pm, so probably says a lot about my state of mind. They didn't even turn out that good. Went shopping but everything I bought (mostly sparkly makeup) I already have similar stuff to, but I'm taking it as buying things that bring me joy.
Cried when I went into my bedroom earlier, just thinking the little dog would have lifted his head as I turned on the light. It's gonna take time to break these habits, that muscle memory.
My illustrated edition of the Hobbit did turn up and my god, I can't believe I got so much book for $16. It's got gold on the cloth bound hardcover, it's nice and thick with glossy paper stock, and it's full of drawings.
Independent book stores could sell this for $36, saying it's marked down from $70 and they'd move so many units.
Book Photos
Anxiety has been bad today. I’m not even thinking about you know what. It’s just there with the rest of my life and everything is making it worse.
I forced myself to quickly go out for newspaper to line plant pots but they didn’t have any. Some dodgy characters around but luckily nothing came of it.
I’ve planted two of the largest zucchini seedlings out but ran out of potting mix and energy because those pots were pretty big. I don’t eat much or exercise enough for physical work like lifting and shoveling so now feeling kind of shaky… but I kind of had to move and do something.
Also they’re growing fast and I don’t think I can keep all of them.
I wish you could get smaller size seed packs or a bundle with like a few seeds of each type. Maybe a seed library could sort me out but I think that’s enough ‘outside’ for now.
If we're doing music, here's a fun song I found a while ago:
Mood: The Summoning - Sleep Token
Mmm, what to eat for dinner…
Gibson in her first week living at my place ❤️
It was an adjustment for both of us. I didn't really know anything about cats, let alone kittens. The day I went and picked her up I bought one of everything at the pet section at kmart lol
The sneak attacks were on a whole other level. She'd jump and stick to my legs with her sharp as fuck little claws 😂
It was a really fun time. Very enjoyable :)
need some of that DT perspective.
vent
So for Christmas this year we are traveling to the inlaws, this involves a short flight to a state we cant drive to (I'll give you 2 guesses). Not STOKED about traveling cause its MUCH easier for them to come to us, but whatever. They often to a greater family thing on Christmas day. I've been asking for months what the plan is. Finally found out that Christmas day plans are 2 hours drive from their place, strike 2. And that there isnt room for us to stay the night so we would have to drive back (for a total of 4 hours in the car) or spend over 1k on accommodation overnight, strike 3. Given we only fly in Christmas eve (and i depart day after boxing day) Im a bit.... not enthused about the whole thing.
Mrs B is acting like im the asshole for not wanting to travel or spend even more than we had originally planned to do, I claim the goalposts have been moved and its too much to expect of us with a toddler. So, thoughts?
Maribyrnong: Anglecised version of "Mirring-gnay-bir-nong", which translates as 'I can hear a ringtail possum'.
That made me laugh so fucking hard 😂😂😂 like it's just an apt name for the area holy shit 😂💀
Source: apparently my own council website lol https://conversations.merri-bek.vic.gov.au/renaming/names-melbourne#:~:text=There are 31 councils in,Yarra River Melbourne - History
I've locked in the 9pm slot next Thursday for the open mic. Will drop a reminder closer to the date if anyone wants to join :)
Seems appropriate
I woke up this morning realising I only set my earlier alarm for the usual days I'd be in the office. I got ready as quickly as possible and jumped on the bike to the station because I wouldn't make the bus. I got there the same time as the bus and still made it to the office by 8
I love my partner - he's listening to Chappell Roan in the shower 😂 hands down my favourite person!
Alright. Pizza and Ps5 let's fucking gooooooo!
(as soon as I get out of bed after my nanna nap)
I like the analogy the man gave me while explaining fast charging and slow charging.
You can eat your meal fast or slow. It doesn't matter, you're still gonna get full but it's good to eat it slow if you can
Oh. Me nods. I get that.
Ps. He said other things but it didn't quite go in.
Unwinding to some Quincy Jones tracks (so much MJ!) as is the theme across so many PBS programs this week...
I'm NOT going to think about packing or selling items tonight, I'm just tapped out.
Got a friend coming over tomorrow to help work out this couch bizzo and provide some distraction from all the packing and culling.
Wonder what movie or tv series I could blank my brain out with this evening.
E: I'm thinking of Poker Face or maybe Happy Valley, never watched that most famous of UK cozy country cop shows
vaccination done, then supermarket where I bought asparagus, eggs and lactose free cream for a quiche and then an art store to see what they had in western calligraphy paper. Home , tired, but have necessary chores to do, the cats need a clean space too.
Why isn't frozen mirepoix a thing? In convenient sized sachets? We can purchase frozen everything else, why not that? It's just finely diced carrot, onion and celery. There's a marketing opportunity here - a sachet of mirepoix and a bag of good chook stock in the same pack - would save so much hassle assembling and chopping etc.
flu vaccine then home to do housework if i am up to it
I might pick up my hobbit books, I got one for miss seagoon too
The falcons are growing up so quickly. They have lost almost all their baby fluff and have started doing a lot of flapping practice.
talking of planning
I think I will map out my new art project, plans will probably change as I go and learn new possibilities
and reading as well, probably easiest to just set aside time everyday for reading
Classes done for the day - phew. Won both Kahoot quizzes so I'm just gonna ride this high for a lil bit
Friday, oh dear Friday.
Save us today!
