Thanks everyone for the support yesterday. Despite feeling it was impossible I called in sick today and have spent the day sleeping (proper sleep not depression hiding I think) and on the couch listening to gentle music and journalling. Cleaned the kitchen. Haven't eaten much but it's good food. Drinking lots of water. About to go wash my hair.
My brain is exponentially calmer now. I wouldn't say I am looking forward to work tomorrow but it's not making me cry. I needed to just....stop.
Hopefully this is the circuit breaker I needed 🤞
Tomorrow - early start, good food at regular times, decent bedtime.
I think I might go to bed shortly. Long, long day.
Nothing bad, just exhausted.
Enjoy your evening everyone ❤️
How dare I want to sleep without brushing Gibson...
Shaved my head last night, my long hair was giving me the absolute shits, even with an undercut. 'Twas just a number 8.
Woke up this morning, and my hair resembled Bart Simpson's, stuck straight up. Slapped a beanie on to try and flatten it a bit. I forgot just how fluffy my hair is at this length. I have really thick hair, it's like wearing an unwieldy ushanka 24/7, so summer is just the worst. Hope this helps with the possible warmer days.
Research not going well. Its clear I can't commit the time originally needed so it's been massively downsized which is eminently sensible but I also feel like I don't really care about it that much either now, it's just another job, albeit one I don't get paid for. I could've been more responsible about understanding time frames and my own interests from the start but I didn't. On top of that, I feel pretty mediocre at work - I'm efficient enough but don't have any new insight to offer or areas of growth. So I'm pulled in multiple directions and can't do any of them well.
Think it's just partly a round of the ol' black dog making everything look like a failure and feeling like nothing truly interests me any more, I'm glad I've got some time off ahead... but I feel like it's also a sign that maybe I need to finally step back from the industry for real once I'm done in 8 months. Move interstate or whatever like I'd thought I might do this year. in the meantime I'm going to have to just phone everything in to stay afloat. meh. Sad.
Continuing my journey through 1001 albums...today's offering is Beck - Sea Change
Perfect background music and very different from what I know Beck for.
Adding it to my rotation
Counting down till the end of the week then I'm on leave.
Waiting for my payday so I can restock of yummies for this weekend and also I have a couple of days to figure out what sort of yummies I want.
man, F Apple! I got the apple care plan on my iphone cause I'm gonna ride the sucker into the ground (and at 2 years old now, its the longest I've "Dailyed" a phone). Anyway, my screen is scratched to the shithouse so i took it in to get repaired. Only No, Sorry, the plan covers cracks but not scratches! Fuckers.
I’m meant to get Fortiflora probiotics but petcircle is out of stock… Same for the other main pet shops. The only sources are sites I haven’t used before.
I really need to do some more housework today. Don’t wanna
I probably shouldn't have put Wonka on the telly because now I rilly rilly want chocolate. A small handful of dried fruit and nuts will have to do.
I think Mr Woof likes his new batch of food, he ate the whole bowl and wanted seconds!
Okay, new nightmare unlocked and I didn’t even dream this one…
