I am finally taking advice from here and getting out of my relationship.
The boyfriend is doing exams. I didn't initiate anything for a few days. Heard nothing from him. Couldn't even fit in a five second text message in his day or a five minute phone call. It's like the relationship didn't exist. He knows how much consistency means to me as I have told him countless times. I understand being busy but totally disappearing off of the face of the Earth and me getting worried is not fun. I thought I was being unreasonable but I have needs and wasn't asking for a lot? My birthday is soon and watch him not even send me a message then as well.
I call him out and explain how I feel (over text but still - he lives kinda far). He replies saying he doesn't have time to deal with me and wants to put the relationship on hold for two weeks until he can see me again in person. Also that if I messaged him, it could only be bare minimum stuff and light-hearted. Great way to make your partner feel like they can't talk to you, particularly when they're constantly anxious! So I am detaching and treating this like a breakup, and then when I see him in two weeks, it will officially be over.
Well here's an ANZAC story from my fam.
WW2 my gramps went to tubruk as a doctor. Aus captured a bunch of Italians late jan '41. The Aus docs and Italian docs that they had captured apparently really hit it off, let them out of captivity for a bit, drank / smoked together and shared advice on battlefield medicine.
Gramps was very quiet about his experience but to my old man he did say a few stories (which to me are only second hand).
He never marched in the parade, never watched it apparently. The blinds would come down when us kids asked about it.
So I think today means something different to everyone.
Bored, so I decided to have a look at my old Reddit comments. Hard to believe it's almost been a year since rexxit.
It also made me remember how damn negative Reddit is. So many of my comments are either at 0, negative, or have a little controversial icon next to them. And the ones that aren't (outside of the DT at least) are mostly just upvoted because I was being a dick to people who were getting downvoted.
Maybe I was just aligning myself with bad crowds, but that feels like it was a common theme on Reddit, I noticed it almost everywhere. Also their new web UI is disgusting and clunky and I don't understand how anybody is able to use it
so I'm showing my age but I went to the black box gig at the forum last night and im still riding high! riding on time, one might say
I forgot to bring my noise cancelling headphones to work and now I have to listen to noises. ☹️
Don’t know if anyone’s a superhero fan but a new trailer came out a couple of days ago for Deadpool.
I have to say that the trailer was pretty awesome and the unexpected use of a song from my childhood was a really big surprise.
Here’s the link for anyone who hasn’t seen it.
I'm feeling really good for an unknown reason and my first thought was "shit what's wrong" lol
Day 5 of the 4L chilli ferment and all is well! Moved it to the back bathroom shower incase it explodes but so far lots of little bubbles when you shake it a little which is great (means I didn't fuck up the salt / water ratio which is a relief).
Spilt some brine on my hand and hoo boy.. brutal.
Can I just say my sinuses have really cleared up in a tropical climate.
I often find at night in particular in Melbourne I do suffer nasal congestion. It's like the tissues themselves in my nose swell. And I've done all sorts of things to keep on top of it which to be fair helps but it's not bullet proof.
I regularly change bedding. I regularly thoroughly vacuum. My floors are not carpet. I don't have pets. My pillows are relatively new. I've tried shutting the window at night.
And given this problem has gone away in a tropical climate I can only deduce I'm constantly surrounded by pollen and dust in Melbourne.
I can't believe I'm saying this. I'm running out of tealight candles.
Been using the back room as a (metaphorical) crap catcher while Operation Sort Shit has been going on; it's taken me the better part of two hours to clear and clean the floor. Oops.
Now having a breather before I clear and clean the rest.Right. Morning work complete.
I’ve seen the same few minutes of several Dawn Services this morning. You’d be amazed how much more people like your friendly neighbourhood trumpet player on Anzac Day 🎺
Finally the cleaning job is done and I’m tired.
Need to fix a few more things, had someone who came to help me today, grateful but missed most of the footy :(
Yay: car! public holiday! picked up some goodies today with ease thanks to both of these factors
Eh: insurance is a bitch to sort through.
Nay: my friend who drove me down to the seller's place last night tested positive for covid this morning 😭 haven't tested myself yet but after an OK start to the day, definitely feeling poorly this afternoon, so I'm fairly certain I've got something...
Yay in the end: the goodies I picked up today were premade meals, I have enough to last me til Monday. Was gonna put most of it in the freezer but now I'm just grateful I have ready made delicious and healthy food to get me through the next two days so I can rest up.
I made a casserole recently and it was pretty good.. none left for the freezer kind of good. So I was going to make another and bought stuff for that. Miniest wanted me to experiment with a chicken and broccoli casserole, so I bought stuff for that too. With today and tomorrow off I'd have plenty of time, I reasoned. Came home yesterday to a freezer which contained a goat's leg, a whole skinned rabbit and some duck breasts. Mr P was so proud, you'd think he hunted them himself (a friend of his has dropped it round). No room for casserole 😬. Also not a fan of duck or rabbit. Don't know a thing about goat. If anyone has any tried and true family ways of cooking a whole goat's leg I will need to hear them please!
Just finished watching Baby Reindeer. There’s no spoilers below but just in case:
musings
This show is heavy. Each episode leaves you thinking why is he letting this happen to himself. But doing things you know are bad for yourself, day after day, maybe for years, is something that happens to people. And then the shame of the self destruction is intense, so it’s rare for people to talk about. I have never seen it depicted with such rawness. Baby reindeer nails it.
It took a while, but the cat has finally discovered that cheese is Good For Cats. Little bugger tried to pinch my smoked cheddar (and gave it a good lick). Luckily he's much prettier than he is smart, it's not hard to outwit him.
Well, I just watched this entire thing, mesmerising...
