Yup. I feel much more hopeful and motivated shortly before bed. I wake up, feel like shit. Go to work, where I obviously feel like shit. Go home tired from work, feel like shit. Then I get to rest and I feel a bit better.
But it's also not wrong in that I know not to trust that version of me, and that I'm not gonna do anything differently the next day. So still accurate.
Yeah this is insane for me to read. I'll say it's about 8pm-2am for me that the world is all quiet and everything is just peaceful. I've had some of my best ideas and made many life decisions in these hours.
This is the exact opposite for me... i get depressed and ashamed about my decisions before bed, and often vow to do better in the morning. It's in the morning I can't be trusted, when I suddenly forget all those desires to do better because it's too much work.
Tbh I'm not even sure what this is supposed to be saying. Do people often wake up completely calm and collected, only to become a mess by the end of the day, making life altering decisions at night?
This is the exact opposite for me... i get depressed and ashamed about my decisions before bed, and often vow to do better in the morning. It's in the morning I can't be trusted, when I suddenly forget all those desires to do better because it's too much work.
I'm very much the same. There's a song a like called difficulties of getting out of bed by Knapsack that I felt describes this feeling well:
And it's difficult to get out of bed
I can't remember the
Things I said, what I told myself last night
I think I wasted my time again
Luckily I'm out of that place now. I hope you get there too, if you're in it.
The song also starts with the line:
I really wish my cactus never died
Which I really like because cactuses are typically the easiest plant to keep alive. But the speaker is struggling so much that even though they really like their cactus, they still can't take care of it. I think it's quite poignant.
It was pretty cool to hear that late night psychosis was a real thing that everyone deals with. Stay up too late and you start becoming REALLY mentally unstable. I have that (and the three times I went absolutely shitfaced) to thank for all my life decisions up to this point, including this one.
That's curious. I actually feel more and more lucid starting around noon or whenever the sun starts setting, and into the night. The person in the mirror starts to actually look decent, I feel more free and happy, etc.
Can't go to sunrise if it can be helped. For some reason it's just a punch in the face to me. I probably have issues with responsibilities or something.
We are all weird creatures for sure though even just based on the comments in this post.
I feel like it must vary. Because I've stayed up late and found myself quivering against a wall hearing things, and other times pulled all-nighters without issue. I guess for the latter I was busy doing things rather than just fretting.
Not at all! Many people feel depressed and overwhelmed late at night, when they're most tired. It's the reason my partner and I have a rule not to make plans or talk about finances before bed, because it all seems doom n gloom.
For me it's weird. I wake up and I feel like a normal person, then I can feel it slowly fade away as my usual self takes over then I forget everything I didn't make a mental effort to hold on to during the process.