Daily Discussion Thread: Mon 02 Oct 2023
Daily Discussion Thread: Mon 02 Oct 2023
Welcome to the Melbourne Community Daily Discussion Thread.
Having a moment where I'm suddenly aware that there's going to be a day where my cat passes, and it will be sooner rather than later as she's getting old, and there's nothing I can do to protect her.
She's been a constant companion for a very long time, and I'm not ready for that day.
How the fuck do youse deal with these kinds of feelings? First time in a long time that the waterworks kicked off and my anxiety is doing shit I really am not okay with
Part of daylights savings is getting used to the fact that the very hottest part of the day is quite often towards the end of the day.
It really stings that, having been pushed by Dad to apologise for my part in the family blow up (I have a short fuse and tend to lash out when overwhelmed/unable to communicate important thingsโฆI know this is not a good way to deal with my problems, but itโs a perennial challenge) I do not get an apology in return.
Nor, I think, will I ever, because I never do.
I donโt regret apologising for my part, butโฆman it would be nice to receive one as well as give one. It would be nice if โwhoops, we didnโt realise weโd pushed your boundaries so hardโ happened once
Shout out to all the shops that blast their AC with the front door wide open.
Incredibly wasteful but they sure are nice to walk past for those 2 seconds.
So the psychiatrist that my psychologist referred me to last week confirmed what we all suspected, that I have ADHD. What I didn't expect was that it's served with a side of Asperger's (now known as 'high functioning autism' apparently). Did not see that one coming but it actually explains a lot.
I should start on the meds (Vyvanse) later this week. No idea what to expect, but sure, I'll take legal speed if it's on offer!
Pro hospital system tip: If you or your loved one is pushed to go into a "Transition Care Program" while recovering from surgery refuse.
It's so under resourced that I've just had to shell out what will probably be ~$2-2.5k on private patient transport because they have zero resources or budget to organise it on our behalf.
Ah the sound of kids bouncing a ball on their way to school and my little dog going berserk because of that.
I need to vent a bit. Did my exercises just now to make myself feel better after coming home and copping criticism from both my kids and Mr P, all for different reasons. Made me feel really flat mood wise, but the exercises helped a bit. The Elder seems to think that the odd bits of swimming lessons he's allowed me to give him here and there over the past year or so are enough for him to say that he can swim, so it's ok for him to go to funfields with the school. He's always been scared of the water and hates those indoor pools with reeking chlorine, so he's always refused formal swimming lessons. Miniest is having trouble with her friends at school and can't find anyone else to play with, so she wants to leave the school at the end of the year ๐คฆ๐ปโโ๏ธ Mr Peeler wanted to grab some cash off me to go get a beer and I had to say no because I've only worked 2 days last week, so even though it's my pay day I have to keep everything tight financially for a bit. Everything is my fault somehow. Sooo tired after a hot day at work. I feel deflated and sort of defeated somehow. Might go have a cup of tea.
Over the weekend I finally tackled a garden I've wanted fixed since I moved in. It looks good so far, but too early to tell till the seedlings take off. Still, job done!
Alrighty, picked up the car, don't have anything to hold the phone in place for navigation so it's AUDIO NAVIGATION time in a city with winding roads and sudden changes in dedicated turn lanes!
Currently at friend's place feeding her cats for the last time because their mum is about to board her flight home from Brisbane. They're used to me now, one is my BFF and they're totally going to be sad when I don't come over tomorrow. Or they won't care. Cats be catting.
Ended up doing an unscheduled sort of the wardrobes after I hung a heavy coat on the rail in the back one and the rail collapsed. :( On the plus side, it was on the to-do list and now I have another box of stuff that was 'send to op shop', no ifs ands or buts.
Also ordered a couple of cheapie sofabed type couches off Ebay, as I am not taking the old ones with me - I did a bit of experimenting and found I could the old ones through the doorway with a bit of manouvering by myself, but I will get an extra pair of hands on the job if I can. Still, it's good to know I can do it solo at a pinch.
Now to get into the shower so I can take the stuff down the op shop...Anyone else have a surplus of uncooked sausages and burgers from their grand final BBQ? I seriously over-estimated the appetite of our guests! I'd be fine with hotdogs and cheeseburgers for the rest of the week, but Mrs_Owl would be over meat-in-bread for dinner pretty quickly. I'm thinking I could smoosh the sausage meat into meatballs to have with pasta or rice. The burgers will just have to be eaten as intended.
Righty ho, we've passed 6 degrees outside, it's time to move some bricks before the heat hits.
I did some yoga today and it felt good after only walking for the past week because I'd hurt my shoulder and then re-hurt it because a spider decided to crawl along the couch while I was wrapped in my doona like a cocoon so instead of a quick get away I rolled off the couch onto the floor hurting myself.
I've had a blast today, I take back what I said about Qld drivers being crazy, it's really more at shitty intersections or peak hour when everyone is insane - it has been such a cruisey drive, everyone so polite and generous, I know there is a large cohort of douchbag ute drivers but honestly I think the overall level of irritability is much higher in Melbourne.
Maybe it's just the sun intoxicating me...
good shit
Had a really really moving conversation today with someone I really look up to and turns out to have some seriously deep hidden depths - the way he's navigated trauma and loneliness with compassion and clarity has been nothing short of inspiring and I kind of feel like I have a tangible role model here. Hearing him gently pick out my insecurities, counter them with proof, and encouraging me to take that step towards the answer... Hearing someone else actually say I've got myself together and am so close to figuring out that passionate calling (?!) - someone who has no reason to exaggerate - has me feeling like some deep part of myself is reorganising.
I'm so not used to people saying I'm doing the right thing especially when I feel like I'm flailing. My body and mind are always primed for criticism and rejection. This is not smart or productive or kind! I want to change.
Poured almost boiling water over my hand
Held it under the tap for a couple of minutes
Good as newI see why it has to be so cold this morning
Food prices keep going up, but it's not yet as bad as it could be - Nottingham Cheese Riot I look forward to the forthcoming Colesworth Riots of Christmas 2023.
I know I've mentioned them a few times lately but these neuron rental scooters have completely changed my view on living in Docklands. I don't tend to get out and walk much but these things are getting me outside more. The beauty of the rental over being something I own is that I don't need to worry about it if I want to stop somewhere. If someone else takes it I can always find another nearby or walk or get on a tram.
I would love my own that's a liiiiittle quicker but I'll take a 20kph top speed over not stressing that it'll get stolen.
If I moved out to a suburb or town I'd consider buying a nice quick one though even just for recreation.
Hayfever is a funny thing. So I'm walking outside and I'm fine. The minute I step inside my eyes itch like crazy and I want to rip them out!
Laying in bed watching the Ryder Cup on my tablet. This event is literally the only golf I ever watch, I just enjoy the format and the whole Europe vs USA teams element. Go Euro!
Bricks moved successfully - the area for the new garden bed is now clear and I have a raised brick edging for a new bed for a couple of citrus trees. Tomorrow I will put down a layer of clay, then wood, then mulch at the bottom of the new bed. Then I need to put together the sides and bamboo framework for the raised beds and wait for a patch of clear weather to order the soil fill.
My poor old garden cart's tyres have given in, and the wheelbarrow is so rusted it is threatening to collapse at any moment, so I think it's time to retire those and look at getting a new cart.
An interesting situation: back in 2017 I went overseas with the intention of staying there (I'm a UK dual-citizen) and when I did, I unenrolled from the Australian Electoral Commission using their "unenroll me, I'm permanently leaving" form.
Later that year I came back deciding that I didn't want to do that, but I never re-enrolled and subsequently haven't voted in any election since without any sort of consequence and honestly, for me I kind of like this situation. I can't find any information anywhere about a penalty for doing this, only information about if you've never enrolled before. The penalty for not voting is for just that, enrolled citizens not voting. Not for being unenrolled.
Anybody know anyone else in a similar boat?
Now Iโm staring at my sleeping Melbcat. :( Sheโs happy though. Sheโs not allowed to roam or go outside unlike her old home, but she gets very good food, endless treats and cuddles and good medical care.
Time for song No. 2โฆ
(I just noticed on Mlem on the iPad that you have to hit Option and Enter to get the next line. Thank goodness because that was driving me completely batty.)
Late last night I snuck in a song:
No. 1. Enter Sandman - Metallica
No. 2. Red Right Hand - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
I hope the markup is right!
Took me awhile to get going today but I got some sunshine, did some adulting/domesticโing. I even cooked dinner (go me!). Work tomorrow, but rumour is itโs quiet so hopefully itโs a chill sort of a day.
Still obsessed with Alone and up to S6. I know itโs old news, but that Larry character. Man, deep, unresolved issues there.
Hope everyone is having a good evening!
Finally took the new car on its first off road run, and was very impressed, had an absolute smashing time. Definitely needs some better suspension, but that'll have to wait until I've added and subtracted a few things.
Donโt know if anyoneโs watching the aussiesโ women cricket team playing but go Phoebe Litchfield!
I split the parsley pot into four small bunches and planted them out in a row. But now wondering if I should have done eight to spread it out sideways as well as longways. Being as the clusters looked like a collection of small individual plants and didnโt look like theyโd spread out on their own. But that would mean more root trauma and transplant shock?
I can answer a few basic questions based on something Iโve grown or done before but Iโm still learning.
Also hoping my fingernail doesnโt get infected from the potting mix. (I previously accidentally pulled it back so it bled.) I treated it at the time with Betadine but forgot about it and dug in the potting mix with my hands and no mask ยฏ\_(ใ)_/ยฏ
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Seasol spray and some supermarket parsley acquired.
I might divide it to plant in a row spreading along the rectangular pot rather than leaving it in one tightly packed clump. Fingers crossed it doesnโt traumatise the roots too badly
Edit: Wait. This is meant to be sprayed on the leaves so I donโt want to use it. The leaves are the edible part and also Melbcat might lick it off the leaves
Edit 2: Apparently youโre not supposed to use in on leaves that will be in direct sunlight as it can make them burn. I take pains to put them in direct sunlight as they need it
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Today was tough. I imagine Tuesday and Wednesday will be tougher before I leave for PAX ๐ญ
So I listened to the Dudley Moore vinyl. It was cool for hep cats. Imma gonna play it at my next suave dinner party.
it was like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2t4ZDFoigM
