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thx, I do take long walks regularly but sadly can't afford any vacation rn

yes ofc, I would take it, she should take it, I wouldn't be sad in the slightest!

I'm through the coping / bargaining stage of telling myself this is a 'superpower'. I think most autists are very much more miserable than neurotypical people so they dissociate by engulfing themselves in their special interest(-s). In the end, they might discover something and receive external gratification / some semblance of success.

But it doesn't matter for them because they were dissociated and didn't even experience life in any meaningful way. Yet society likes them that way so they enforce the behaviour by telling us we're smart special flowers.

Dissociation I think is a key coping strategy for many of us. Not only because of what I wrote above, but because whenever I drag myself out of it, I become self-aware enough to experience how autism effects me every second of my life.

Living with that knowledge is hard, but better than dissociated.

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thx <3 yeah I know, I'm just grieving. I know you people here are overwhelmingly nice. so I just write these things here to also work through them and share my experiences

Haha yeah, I'm kinda surprised as well, but I guess that's also why I went with monotherapy (and a strong dose at that; I aim for about 400ng/dl E2 at trough). It does come with its downsides - mainly strong moodswings, as Dandelion mentioned in her comment - but overall I'm pretty set on my decision.

A Charles Bukowski quote that has always stuck with me is 'If you're gonna try, go all the way' :)

thx :3 but wdym 'speedrun'? ^^

Thanks for your detailed reply!

Just to clarify: I'm still overall like 20-30% happier than I was before - during the first one and a half weeks it was just like +75% (I should add that first part to the post I think - totally forgot but very important).

I also get the buzz right after the injection you mentioned... it's more of a light-headedness though and not what the permanent improvement feels like (that goes more in the calm and happy, serotonergic direction).

Thanks also for reminding me of the journal part, I should get started on that.

thx :3

ah yes, 'Canada first'... how innovative!

and like there's a male and a female set of (internal) rules... since I switched to the female set of rules I feel much free-er

ah yes and a fat portion of autism which just clings onto fixed set of rules like those things you hang from the ceiling to get rid of flies

the answer is weird gender expectations and brainworms my friend... I cannot explain it, but its better now

unfortunately I have my fathers sneeze which means every time I sneeze it registers on the Richter scale halfway across the world... and if I supress the sneeze I feel like my eyeballs will pop out -_-

hoping you get through this very soon! much love going out girl <3

Big France W!

If portability is no concern > Sennheiser HD 280

If it is > Audio Technica ATH-M40

Its very considerate of the blind manufacturer to shorten the last two blinds so the cat can do their job much easier!

my first instinct would be to slap the shit out of something I don't know