I'm not capable of providing value to anyone. Not my kids, not my soon-to-be ex wife, not my employer. I'm nothing but a drain on everyone in my life and when I die, I will do it penniless and alone.
I would start with Magma. They're the originators of the genre, back in the 70s I think. I'd recommend their album Attahk. I tend to favor some of the more recent bands tho. Koenjihyakkei is probably my personal favorite. You can't go wrong with any of their albums, imo.
Not as sick as you're about to be from rat lung worm.