Try not to be too hard on yourself, it's extremely tough out there and it's no shame to rely on your parents. They are family, and they want to help you get on your feet. Other cultures look at family support as completely natural, but in the west generally we are made to feel that we need to be completely independent and figure it all out at 18, otherwise we are losers.
I studied and worked hard in my 20s, stabilized in my 30s, and only now north of 40 do I feel like I have achieved success, except there are still aspects of my life that aren't what I hoped. Nobody has it all figured out.
Personally I wouldn't drop a love bomb on anyone out of the blue. But if you're feeling the urge to reconnect why not try something less intense, like "Hey dreamgirl you just randomly crossed my mind, I used to have such a crush on you back in the day, what's going on in your world?"
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