I think the original commenter suggested autism because of OP's rather... peculiar hyperfixation. Hyperfixations on atypical things are common in people on the spectrum.
To me, it's either that or OP is very very young.
EDIT: also, star trek rules
TL;DR: Skip to the last paragraph.
So, I studied psychology in university and this is to the best of my knowledge.
IQ is basically scientifically outdated and based in racism and classism. The guy who popularized IQ testing in the US, Lewis Terman, was a horrible racist who loved using it to prove White people were superior to black people. There are much newer theories of intelligence that view it more as a domain-based thing (e.g. someone might not be musically intelligent, but they might be mathematically intelligent and so on).
There are also different ways your score could've been thrown off, too, especially if your ADHD is relatively severe. Unless you have some sort of developmental disability like Down syndrome, it's actually pretty likely your IQ is roughly the same as your siblings'.
Honestly, the real issue here is the ADHD. Take it from someone who also has it: if left unchecked, it can be a life-ruiner. I was a B and C student and had no clue why until I was almost 23 and finally got diagnosed. I got into university, but it was only after spending 4 years in community college. The guy who diagnosed me said that he doesn't know how I actually managed to do it. He said it was like I had been trying to swim with cement blocks tied to my feet.
Forget intelligence for a second. You are very obviously an capable person. You worked hard in school, you have a good command of the English language, and you're holding down a job in fast food (a field that sent me to tears multiple times, mind you). Your problem is that you've had a very rough life with little support. Prioritize kicking your addictions (maybe try and find a recovery group). See a therapist to talk through your father's abuse. See a psychiatrist to talk about medication for ADHD (non-narcotic, of course). You deserve to be satisfied with your life, and I believe you can get there.
I'm part of the woke crowd and have never seen anyone I know get upset about it. In fact, we all tend to like it.
Isn't the actual Salem Village called Danvers now anyway?
For standalone desktops, Hyprland is undeniably your best base at the moment to write a window manager.
Well, it took him more than 2/3 of the post to mention hyprland, so I'll give him props for that.
We should get a Tyranid video game. It could be like the game Anarcute, but instead of wrecking up stuff belonging to corporations, you wreck up Space Marines and Tau and shit.
The perfect filled-in eyebrows, looks like she's wearing lipstick and eyeliner. It's a little... strange.
You mean the problems that experts said 10+ years ago would happen are happening?
Notably, the words the author focused on are all considered offensive now. If a more liberal person were to look for transgender porn, they may not use those terms.
Can confirm, Tracy is in the middle of nowhere and there's nothing to do.
As for the crypto piece of this puzzle, cybersecurity researcher Varun Biniwale pointed out hidden pages from the Flappy Bird website that indicate there may be such a component in the game’s launch. One page that seems to have been removed (and is archived here) said Flappy Bird will “fly higher than ever on Solana as it soars into web 3.0,” and invited players to “build, create, play and stake to own.”
Of course it's a crypto scam.
It was actually a reference to Eminem's song "Stan" about an insane fan who murders his family or something.
I saw it in theaters, and I remember it being a great horror movie stitched together with a bunch of exposition that didn't make any sense and characters I didn't care about. Prometheus may be a very uneven movie, but it spent time building up its characters to a place where I actually could feel investment. Plus, Noomi Rapace is just a fantastic actress.
Godzilla: Domination! Developed by WayForward, which is probably why it's so good.
Fitgirl is a repacker. She doesn't crack; she's just a compression nerd.
So, to get this out of the way, I'm a cisgender white man from a well-off family in a fairly affluent town. I'm making this post because I want to hear perspectives from those who are different from and likely significantly more knowledgeable than me. (Literally as I was writing this post, I came to the epiphany that I should probably more properly educate myself on socialism.)
TL;DR: What is your opinion on giving money to houseless people you see IRL?
I like to consider myself socialist/progressive in thought---in favor of wealth redistribution via various methods, live and let live, freedom for everyone as long as you're not materially harming anyone, etc.---but I grew up in a fairly conservative household (more socially than fiscally, but even then). Being in a rich area, I never really saw houseless people around unless I went to one of the nearby cities, and the general policy was keep walking and don't look. My parents definitely raised me to be kind and generous, but more in a detached "give to charity" way.
Rather recently, I've really embraced this idea of being socialist, and I've become very free with giving my money in particular (though I'm aware I could do more, like join a DSA branch or somethin'). I love giving to non-profit organizations when I can, I support creators I like on Patreon. I've even started giving to people on Fedi who I've seen need money for whatever reason. Spread the wealth, right?
Now, things have changed where I live, and even in my rich lil burb, you can usually find at least one refugee or houseless person when you go out to a grocery store or something. I just saw a guy who was standing outside a grocery store asking for spare change, and it was a rare occasion that I actually had cash in my wallet. On my way out, I gave it to him. Simple.
But I feel weird about it. I have all these ideas in my head from White America saying that they'll just buy alcohol or drugs with it or that they're scamming me or anything else like that. Then on the other hand, I think that it's just as likely (if not more) that they're going to spend it on things they actually need to live and how it's not my job to police how they use their money. And then on the third hand, I think that maybe it would be better to donate money to organizations that help out houseless people than just giving money to random people. Then on the fourth hand---you get the idea.
For those of you who actually read the whole post and didn't stop at the TL;DR, I have a few questions:
- Why in God's name did you actually read this whole thing?
- Are these feelings normal or am I just a self-centered prick?
- What are your opinions on giving money to houseless people you just randomly meet?
- As a bonus question for the socialists out there: Any recs on socialism learning resources for someone who likes reading, but doesn't like reading books?
For those of you who made it all the way to the end, thank you for reading my neurotic ramblings.
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EDIT: I didn't really expect this to blow up... but thank you all so much for your perspectives on everything. It was exactly what I was hoping for and exactly what I didn't think I was going to get. I tried to read everything and I feel simultaneously less conflicted, but definitely more... not confused, but maybe full of ideas?
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