big pog! not to jinx it (touch wood) but the bastard landlord thats been screwing me around has responded and it looks like we're going to get this apartment! 
so glad i get to give a fucking exorbitant amount of money to some parasite in order to not be homeless 
i don't understand, its been going bad the entire time, why admit it now? its been 18 months and thousands of lives, wtf
that was great, thanks for setting it up, wombat 
i even managed to get something productive done in between films during the funky break videos
Now i never specialised in particle accelerators and i can only speak for syncrotron type accelerators (like Diamond in the UK) but i took exams about them and i got to tour one so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. Generally, they're a pretty normal thing in particle physics and materials science now, like, they're places where a bunch of people have relatively dull 9-5 jobs and parts of them are rented out to random companies. Mostly they're used for medical/drug research and semiconductor stuff now, and to my knowledge they've discovered nothing that would excite the general public for years.
They can't really be a 'failed theory', because they're SUPER useful for telling us whats in shit and how materials behave, they're just not the magical world-ending bullshit that the news like to say they are. No one really expected them to be (except the media trying to farm clicks). Making stuff go fast is fun and informative, thats all we need 
one language in five hours? psh, childs play 
idk, maybe i'll get lucky and have everything finished in time for the 2nd film
oh god i need to do job applications tonight but also i've heard that these are such good films 
guess we're about to find out if i can multitask ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I'd like to be the blue dude. I want to try running a little campaign, but my group has 2 very good GMs and I'm generally nervous and not good at talking. I've considered maybe running something online with some vague online friends to learn how, but our GMs are my roommates and I'm sure they would hear me playing with strangers and ask why and/or insist that our own group won't judge me. Which they wouldn't, but that doesn't mean I want to look like a fuck up in front of them in comparison to the standard of GMing theyre used to 
managed to get the deposit down on an apartment with some friends 
the rent is kind of bullshit and the landlord company is making us fill out a a bunch of awkward forms on on a really shittily designed website, but we managed it. theres meant to be a big lgbt community there and leftist organisations and people my own age. the only issue now is getting a job. its not usually in my nature, but i'm actually feeling pretty hopeful about life rn 
even discounting how much they must have paid for all that random shit, whenever i see these sorts of videos i wonder who has to clean it up. like, surely its either not this person or they've never done this before - with all those balls and slippery shit and broken glass they've just created a mega dangerous enviroment to clean
damn, this "purity" shit is easy for people who uphold their volcel pledge 
the only one i actually remember is toys are us and honestly it wasn't that great? i don't see the appeal, but maybe its just that my family could never really afford much in there
looking for jobs rn and you would not believe how much more these places have to be paying to get me genuinely considering full time in person work. 100% fuck that, i want to keep my headphones in and not have to get up at bullshit times in the morning, suck my dick about it bourgeoisie
he's human. i'm pretty sure we all feel like this sometimes. yeah, sure, leaving isn't a real option, but a LOT of leftists have days where they just want to say fuck it and give up on everything because it all looks impossible - the difference is that most of us don't have our doomery breakdowns broadcast to thousands of people
