I wanted to share with you what my therapist told me. I was doing the same thing after my child was born. I kept having these terrible thoughts like "what if I trip and drop her and kill her? What if I wake up and she's not breathing in the morning?" What my therapist told me is that I had to stop thinking about the what if's. She said that every time I realized I was thinking about those I had to stop and tell myself to stop.
The brain likes to nonstop think and if you start to think about those irrational thoughts all the time it starts to default to those. What she reminded me of something I really read in a Tibetan monk's book. He talked about how the brain has a primitive side that is like a monkey that just chitters constantly. You have to learn to quiet it sometimes.
So every time you have these what if thoughts, stop and breathe, and tell yourself that "these are thoughts of scenarios that aren't real and the chances of them happening might be slim." Yeah, there is a chance they could happen, but you are capable and you will handle them if it comes to that. But most likely, they won't happen. And you need to change something because these thoughts are not useful or helpful to you.
Something to go along with this, some people will have a "magic word" or gesture they do that goes along with this. When they realize they are thinking these thoughts they will say "banana" or something or snap their fingers. Whatever they use, it signals their brain to immediately stop thinking that way and move on. I tend to say "I don't give a shit!" when I start thinking like that.
I know it's tempting to think "but it's still possible they will happen, if I prepare then maybe I can stop it." But it's not worth worrying about all the time. I have life insurance so my family is covered if I pass. I wear tennis shoes when I carry my daughter when we go out the front door. I keep the floor clean so I don't trip. I do things that can actually make a difference. Worrying about those things constantly won't.
I hope you find some peace with this. Anxiety is a bitch. I know this thing my therapist told me to do didn't fix everything, but it helped immensely. It's one step in the right direction, one step towards progress, and mental health is one of those things you need to combat one little step at a time.
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When got dogs years ago I never wanted anything I couldn't pick up on my own in an emergency. That dog looks like a team lift situation.
You feel tons better when you take care of your body.
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I appreciate not having trolls around but that is very hard to define. Some trolling is harmless and some are there is intentionally start flame wars. Its the flame war crap that makes it impossible to have genuine conversations.
And "don't be a dick" is always a good one.
Pick something and go with it. Something in ballpark of what you think you want to go for. It may not be the right choice but you'll have a degree and you can work on a second if you really have or take some certifications. But what's important is that you make a decision. Even if that decision is to take a year off and think about it, that's a decision.
That men should be able to fix things and be mechanically inclined.
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I had a parent who was terrible. It really sucked because out of my siblings I was the one who was really willing and able to deal with the end of life bullshit. She was mentally and emotionally abusive throughout my life. I did my best to be fair and make sure she was treated with dignity. I think any human being deserves that. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her I loved her when she said it to me towards the end. I wasn't angry towards her or anything. I just tried to deal with it without emotion. My brother did help handle a lot of interaction with her. I'm very thankful he was there with me.
I'll be honest, I am glad she is gone. I stressed out over her and things she would do. I couldn't have made the future choices I did if she was still around. Everyone in my family is better off and their lives are better because she is gone. I think feeling bad for their suffering means that you are human and have empathy. I think back still, at times, and feel for her. I think about the things in her life that made her the way that she was. It also fucked me up for a while after my child was born because it made me think of the better times with my mother when I was young. Still does sometimes. But she is gone now. It's okay to mourn that person so you can move on. You are mourning the good things about the person, and maybe even the bad. To move on past the things that fuck with us, sometimes we have to forgive because it is what is best for ourselves. I at least know I will never have to endure the suffering she inflicted upon me through her abuse again. For that I am greatful.
Destiny 2 was barely playable at all yesterday after weekly reset, thanks to a number of error codes being spat at players during login or travel.
Destiny 2 was barely playable at all yesterday after weekly reset, thanks to a number of error codes being spat at players during login or travel. By evening, I couldn’t play at all, loading into empty activities that would promptly kick me out after a minute or two.
Bungie has now confirmed that these instability issues have nothing to do with the recent weapon superbug that they are in the middle of fixing, where some perks have been disabled as they press toward a larger solution. Bungie has in fact revealed these current attacks on Destiny 2 are the result of outside DDoSing. Here’s what the BungieHelp account said late yesterday:
"Over the past couple of days, we've seen a spike in error codes and disconnects. The team has confirmed that these error codes are not related to the planned fixes rolling out for the recent crafting issue and are instead a result of DDoS attacks. While we typically don't confirm…"
In the tweet, Bungie says that this has happened before, but normally they would not comment on it, as that can just aid and embolden the perpetrators. This time, they’re doing it because they didn’t want people to assume it was because of the ongoing major bug fix.
There have indeed been instances in the past when Destiny 2 was suffering from huge server issues where I was told it was in fact a DDoS attack, but Bungie couldn’t say anything due to the reasons above. But it’s a frustrating situation given that of course, the wider community will assume it’s Bungie’s fault (and I mean, sometimes it is just normal server problems) instead of an active attack. Though now in the future perhaps there will be a little more room for interpretation, given that this has happened before, it’s happening now, and it will happen again.
Bungie has been incredibly litigious as of late when it comes to people impacting the game or its community. They have sued and won judgements against several large-scale cheatmakers. They went after someone who issued false YouTube takedown notices. They were awarded a judgement against someone who terrorized their former community manager and his wife.
It stands to reason they may take similar action against a DDoSer, but finding them may be a tall order. They are doing way, way more active damage to the game than some of these other cases, but it’s notoriously difficult to hunt someone like this down. It has happened in the past, but rarely, if ever, for something like going after a video game’s servers. I’m sure Bungie would absolutely seek damages or criminal charges here, if it were possible. We’ll see what happens.
For now, the game seems to be working okay as of this morning, but it’s unclear if the attacks have ceased altogether. My heart goes out to every “fix things” team at Bungie between these attacks and the ongoing bug fixes for the wildest glitch in game history. Hell of a week (Lemon, it’s Wednesday).
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