Trying to get rid of alcohol is so fucking damn hard.

Here's some inspiration for you.

One of my Great-grandfathers started smoking when he was 11 years old, basically smoked his entire life until one day he got a call from his wife's doctor.

The doctor told him that his wife had asthma and can't be around smoke anymore. So my grandfather stopped smoking cold turkey half way through a cigarette and left that half-smoked cigarette in that partially smoked pack of cigarettes on top of his dresser for the rest of his life and never smoked again.

While I never has that hard dependency, I know part of the feeling.

It is hard. It does hurt. Any help is useful. And it is worth it.

If you don't manage it in first try, it is ok, maybe even usual.

I am happy for you at least eant to quit and you are doing your current best. Get any support you can and have understanding and love for yourself.

I would also suggest psychotherapy, it helped me. There is a reason we are addicted. Problem is good therapist is also hard to find, but it is worth it.

Good luck!

When I quit drinking 5 years ago it was the hardest thing I've ever done. It was my 4th attempt, and I've been sober since.

I felt like crap, I slept like crap, my mental health took a dive (panic attacks galore), but all of that was temporary. It only lasted for the first few weeks to few months though. The cravings lasted much much longer.

I knew I couldn't drink in moderation, I knew I couldn't ease my way down, I had tried those before. I had to quit cold turkey, and I did.

I had to get all the alcohol out of my apartment because having it there available to me was like a siren's song. Calling me to smash my life upon the rocks with just one more drink.

I couldn't be around alcohol for months because my hands would start shaking when I'd start smelling it because I would start craving it so bad.

It was closer to the one year mark than I'd like to admit when I had the "pleasure" of cleaning up a massive spill of alcohol at work (I work in the freight industry) and I knew that I could stay sober and that I'd made it past the worst of it. I knew that because when the smell hit me I didn't have to fight the urge to suck it out of the floor boards.

My mental health since then has gotten way better, I'm actually able to deal with my PTSD and my ADHD.

Stick to it friend, it will be hard, you will feel like you can't do it at times, but stick to it. You have the strength. You just have to believe in yourself.