Sometimes not even doing something, just in spite
Sometimes not even doing something, just in spite
And somehow getting enough serotonin to get through the next day
I’m so tired, I shouldn’t have stayed up so late.
Next night: fuck it, imma do it again.
And then morning workout flies out cause I am not going to work out when tired right? I can just do it tomorrow when I will be well rested to get ''best efficiency''
I feel so fucking guilty since a week of skipping it I literally want to cry but I am too tired to do it now
Thing is it is important cause of the trans things and figure you know I have smoll legs I need to carve proportions with sweat and protein uh. I barely can look in the mirror tbh. But just a one good night of sleep
It's no shame having problems fighting the executive disfunction. Some days it is OK to look after yourself and recharge. Your not alone, don't be to hard to yourself.
I don't know much about trans issues, but you are valid. Don't set your goals to high, you don't have to look someway to be yourself. But I hope you get to a point where you are comfortable in your own skin either way.
I'm in this picture and I don't like it 😅.
Are you me?
Revenge Bedtime Procrastination! https://www.sleepfoundation.org/sleep-hygiene/revenge-bedtime-procrastination
Sleep deprivation got me through many years of work. Not being able to GAF results in not GAF, which is the healthiest possible work and life attitude.
Now jobs I liked (because they paid well) working for people I liked (because they weren't micromanaging bungholes)? That was different. Regular old grind though? Yeah, I'm giving my least.
Literally every day of my life
Literally every day of my life
I’m doing GOOD if I manage 4.
I was always suprisingly calm if I didn't sleep too much. Like everything was slowed down to the comfortable level and I just felt yawn more at peace and chill
But maybe that is more anxiety things. Whatever the reason I was sleep depriving myself casually throrought all the school years because it felt better to be sleep deprived
I really need to limit the words cause you dear goldfishes lol
It's late and I should go to bed or I'll feel bad tomorrow... but I LIKE what I'm doing now, and this beer won't finish itself
Seriously, I get home by like 18:00-19:00 and only have about three hours to myself if I want to have my eight hours of sleep. Thankfully at least my job is a very cozy office job where my workload is very mild.
Yup, I get home between 17:30~18:00 but it's only when I'm already in bed at night when I feel that I can play for a little bit or mindlessly read social media without feeling guilty about not doing anything productive.
Sure, I can play or watch tv sometimes in the afternoon if I don't have any urgent chores to do but there's this constant inner voice that doesn't let me enjoy it.
I still feel guilty because I have ambitions, but really I'm struggling with just surviving it really is hard to do well these days...
I feel this in my my bones
Recently tried to switch to waking at 5 and have two hours for myself. Not bad.
I do this too and I'm pretty sure I don't have ADHD.
I do the opposite go to bed early and responsibly only to wake up 5 hours later thinking that's enough sleep for a 12 hour shift... it never is