Hello Reddthat 👋

Hi, ADHDer here. I just deleted my reddit account last night and have come by here, made an account (I did make one for sh.itjust.works first to try out, and there's nothing wrong there whatsoever, but I feel that this instance would do me a little bit better) and everything. I'm pretty sure my change in medication made me RSD myself out of there, deleting my Reddit account in a moment of high emotional turmoil.

No no, no one was truly to blame for me ultimately leaving that site. The mods there are just extremely busy, and thus would've no choice but to enforce certain rules rigidly and ambivalently if they were to ever get anything done. I think I might've pushed an unknown boundary by cross posting on a sub, and the resulting no communication, a new rule seemingly appearing in place, the deletion of my post, and all of my comments (probably some kind of automod did that part of the cleanup), was a bit too much to handle.

They impartially and emotionlessly moderated their sub, which wasn't wrong of them to do so. They likely don't have nearly the energy to separate the spammers and trolls from the genuine participant sharing passionately and enthusiastically about something that means a lot to them and them only. And in typical ADHD fashion, I was too much. I crossposted to 3 other subs, the mods used "mod discretion" and cleaned me up.

There's no hard feelings here to them from me, not really, not even from the very beginning of the ordeal. But that doesn't mean I wasn't hurt emotionally, even if I didn't disagree intellectually. I should be out of there completely for my mental health, I have left that place for me and me only. Not that the people on Reddit weren't genuinely good people, but just seeing a bunch of people arguing and arguing—and the algorithm robotically pushing and pushing those conflict generating (high interaction) posts higher and higher up my feed—and being generally negative wasn't doing me any good as I doom scrolled my time and mental energy away, even when I barely even participated in the majority of them.

This is a new start, I kept trying to go back to reddit.com, but my heart knows it has done the right thing. It's surprisingly freeing not having this chain around me anymore, despite the initial angst I had felt with that irreversible decision.

The inability to downvote nor see any downvotes, and thus me not having any urge to engage with negativity, would hopefully also be a positive change to come.

Hello Reddthat. 👋 I hope I'll end up a net positive to this homely community. And I'll try not to be too much again if I can help it.