me_irl

I’m sitting on the floor of the tub right now, letting the shower water just hit me until the hot runs out. It’s my daily therapy ritual of disassociation and white noise.

It's true. I take cold showers now because when I wake up under the covers next to another human body I'm fucking boiling!

I do it in the hopes the hot steamy water will cause me to lose consciousness and after collapsing my head will be propped - mouth agape - in a way that I’ll drown without having to worry about the actual scary drowning part. 👏

And yea, it does feel good too. 🥺

na i am just a hidden reptiloid trying to stay warm ok

I feel attacked.