Me around people I don't feel comfortable with

Out of browsing autism issues, and out of online for the day, actually. I like this community but when 80% of memes fit to me, i start to feel more handicapped and it's draining. I wish i could meet certain people in person. Online "community" is just not real enough and can make feel lonely.

Edit: some context ... This particular meme story here talks about hiding one's idiosyncrasies, as part of what we call masking. I started discovering my own neurodiversity the classic way (which is also the hard way) -- by having an autistic burn-out. Not only is this kind of masking very demanding (i was unconsciously always on alert for "danger" of meeting strangers), but it's also stealing the joy from living. I could choose between dreaming along freely but lonely, or being among people but constantly watching my behaviour ... so long until all energy was drained and i couldn't do it anymore. Fortunately for me, a certain miss Greta Thunberg was in the news in those days, and she gave it all a name ...
This meme makes me sad and quite anxious. It reminds me that i'm still doing that stupid thing far too much ... "am i acting weird? what will the others think?" ... damn!

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I showed up at my computer science class in a banana shirt today. Weird is how I roll!
Shit so relatable again ...
Need to get out of here.
- nice username! i like the knocked down S
  
  haha that just so happened that it fell over! 🙃
  https://lingojam.com/
- Out of where?
  
  Out of browsing autism issues, and out of online for the day, actually. I like this community but when 80% of memes fit to me, i start to feel more handicapped and it's draining. I wish i could meet certain people in person. Online "community" is just not real enough and can make feel lonely.
  Edit: some context ... This particular meme story here talks about hiding one's idiosyncrasies, as part of what we call masking. I started discovering my own neurodiversity the classic way (which is also the hard way) -- by having an autistic burn-out. Not only is this kind of masking very demanding (i was unconsciously always on alert for "danger" of meeting strangers), but it's also stealing the joy from living. I could choose between dreaming along freely but lonely, or being among people but constantly watching my behaviour ... so long until all energy was drained and i couldn't do it anymore. Fortunately for me, a certain miss Greta Thunberg was in the news in those days, and she gave it all a name ...
  This meme makes me sad and quite anxious. It reminds me that i'm still doing that stupid thing far too much ... "am i acting weird? what will the others think?" ... damn!
Wizbit, izzat you?