To my fellow trans furries: Did you have fursonas that matched your preferred gender before you found out you were trans?
To my fellow trans furries: Did you have fursonas that matched your preferred gender before you found out you were trans?
I (FtM) only had chick sonas until I actually realized I'd rather be a dude. Anyone else, or did you all have fursonas not of your born sex?
I was AMAB, but my fursona is an intersex male (AKA 'andromorph'). I've since decided that I want to transition to be the same way. When I started out in the fandom, I definitely didn't think I'd ever have those feelings, so yes, my fursona ended up becoming something that my subconscious desires latched onto.
I'm actually intersex (I have multiple intersex conditions), but in a manner closer to AMAB than AFAB. Now, admittedly, my first sona's original incarnation at its original inception was essentially that (what you mentioned) to some degree. My transition options in the end ultimately are ones involving a PPV with no orchi.
Was trans before I was a furry, but before I was trans I had only female ocs (a fox kitsune and a dragon to be specific). I still have a bunch of female ocs so I don't think it has to do with my gender lol
Are we talking gender gender or sex gender? My answer varies depending on which one you mean.
I was raised in a very conservative environment, such that I had no concept of transness or of gender as something distinct from what's between my legs. "Male" was literally the only conceivable option for me. So when I developed a sudden obsession with foxes in my teens and started imagining myself as one, that fursona was of course male. Over time he developed into a sort of idealized masculine self: Cool, confident, cunning, stoic. (With OP magic anime powers because I was a teenager, after all.)
But at the same time I started to realize there was this other side of me that I usually kept hidden. A real me. One my fursona could not express. So I made a secondary sona. A small, cute little arctic fox who was shy and timid but very much wanted to help people. Strongly empathic, emotionally deep, the sort of person to stop and smell the flowers because it would be sad if nobody appreciated them. Somehow they had ended up with a strongly feminine personality. But they're me, so they have to be male, right?
25 years later I finally realized what that little floof was trying to tell me. We may be amab, but we're not male. Not on the inside where it matters.
To reword the question, did you have a fursona whose sex matched your gender. If you were born male and only had male fursonas, then it'd be a no, but someone born male with a female fursona would be yes. To add to it, I wonder about people who had trans fursonas before they knew they were trans themselves.
To add to my post. While my old fursona was initially male along with my birth gender, within the few months before my egg cracked, I sort of experimented with making a new raccoon girl sona.
My raccoon girl sona, along with egg_irl, was what helped me crack my egg.
Then I suppose my answer is no, as all of my fursonas are amab like I am. The arctic fox one's gender was always feminine, though, and I thought of them as a femboy until I realized that gender could be different from sex. Now they're sort of transfem non-binary, I guess? Definitely feminine, but fine with any pronouns. The fursona didn't change but my understanding of the relationship between their sex and gender did, so maybe I did have a trans fursona before realizing I was trans?
Actually, yeah
Though their pronouns being she/they instead of she/her came after realizing I was transfem and not enby
I (MtF) also on a similar boat, only having male sonas until I actually realize I'd rather be a girl. Having assigned-gender fursona did help with dysphoria, though, as he helped me project myself into a character that's my distinctly not me.
I wasn't myself, I was my male fursona. That sort of dissociation helped me cope with dysphoria up until I realized myself as transgender. So, yeah, I had a fursona that was my birth sex before I discovered myself.
Funnily enough, when I designed my first fursona, I made his color white and pink because I wanted to subtly rebel gender roles at the time. I didn't think of it much aside from messing with gender roles, but looking back, that could've been a sign.
Yyyyuuppp! Hanalei has gone through several iterations, but she's always been a girl. In retrospect, it was one of the literally millions of obvious signs that I was trans -- the signs I chose to ignore because I didn't want to think about it.... yall know how it is.
one of the literally millions of obvious signs that I was trans – the signs I chose to ignore
lmao me always roleplaying as a guy and having basically ALL male characters growing up before I knew I was FtM. My child brain just thought they were neat and it was nothing else :)
I used my fursona to explore my feelings about a lot of body-plans before settling on what feels right. Turns out I'm a weird kind of enby. =D
I (MtF) had drawn up my first bunny sona as a boy when I was still identifying as male and it was years until I realized I was trans yet. He was a femme-looking pink bunny, so it's not like he was the most manly of figures, but still. I wasn't really aware of what that meant in terms of what it was revealing about my inner self. I had created my first other sonas around like...age 14? 15? Most of them were women, and I just thought nothing of it because artists draw women all the time. So, no, my first sona did not start as my preferred gender now.
As time passed and I got older however, I started to become a little more comfortable with expressing and conforming to the feelings and visuals of my gender identity. Eventually, once I started transitioning, I created a female counterpart to my old boy that I use as my primary sona today, and likely will for a long time.
As characters, I consider them (the male and female halves of one central design) to be two separate people, yet they are two sides of the same coin. Despite being a woman today, I don't want to reject or get rid of that old male version of my character since he was an important stepping stone to the comfort I feel within my identity now. I also am still fond of what I created back then in terms of his design and it'd be a shame to ditch him, I think.
My very first fursona was a male skunk who did cosplay. I didn't think much about it, I was creating a character for an online chat program. My egg had not fully cracked at the time, and I didn't use that fursona much (didn't really have time to use the chat program in the end).
My next (current) fursona keeps alternating between female and genderfluid. I am still having problems getting her presentation right, and a lot of people I know see it as a male character when I am not using shape padding. I think once I can start presenting how I want to in mundane life, people will start seeing my fursona the way I want her to be perceived. It does not help that my head is not overly feminine, it is more toony nuetral, which is percieved as male by default. The best I may get for it is androgenous.
If you want to force a more feminine look on a neutral fursuit head, maybe try large eyelashes and/or maybe a pink hair clip? I'm the opposite way, looking feminine when I want to present as more masc, so my tactics won't work for you lol.
haha actually yes. I created my sona to be a representation of another side of me over a year before I came out. Now my sona has gone through a name change and now she is fully me. I love her to death!