I try not to think about "what ifs" like maybe I shouldn't have to worry about housing and Healthcare as much as I am forced to. There is no point. I don't live in this hypothetical better place. I never will live there.
Live your life the best way you can, ignore all rules, you can't control nothing in life may as well enjoy it the most way you can just to spite god. You're never the one struggling in life if you're still alive, life is still struggling with you.