I'm looking for games that make me feel small and insignificant
Pretty much, I'm looking for a game where I'm not the hero, I'm not the protagonist, I'm just a pawn in the big picture.
Preferably a game with a big open world too, one that feels real and isn't just a predetermined path for my player.
I also like games where you aren't clearly stronger than all your opponents like you're some sort of God so they actually feel intimidating and there is a fear of dying
Just keep at it. It doesn't hold your hand at all, and you might get frustrated. Just give it time. If it clicks for you, you'll experience one of the best gaming experiences of your life.
You read my mind... I just spent an hour learning the basics and finally took off for the first time. Landed on a planet, got off the shuttle, walked on a wall and died a few steps in without even knowing why. The lack of quick save option is also a little frustrating. But I'll keep at it for a while. Hopefully it pays off!