I live alone and actively wish I could die. I'm not hurting anyone but myself.
I am glad that it's not cool with the younger generations, and that the whole vaping fad kinda died back.
Still though, the amount of self righteousness and lack of empathy from some non smokers really makes me glad that I will never have to hang out with those types of people.
Addiction is a hell of a thing, and when the alternative is worse than quitting, it's extremely difficult to quit.
You shouldn't express your suicidal ideations in public. It's dangerous for other people. If someone feels bad for you and tries to help you avoid living longer without smoking, they could get in lots of trouble. You're playing with fire.
There are a lot of people on this website who believe in the right to die and would feel bad, seeing you suffering like this. They'd want to talk about your right to die with you. But they could get in trouble for that, because the pro-life people see that as encouraging suicide. You're putting the pro-choice people in the difficult position of choosing whether to try to help you, or look after themselves.
I feel like this is you fighting phantoms. I highly doubt anyone would want to actively help someone die instead like, referring them to a psychologist or therapist or something
Having to deal with the consequences of dropping a lifelong addiction most likely.
Quitting smoking fucking sucks. You don't start to notice the positive effects of quitting for weeks after your last smoke, and you don't realize until then how much the cigarettes are affecting your health. So it can really feel like you're putting yourself through hell for very little benefit. When just having a cigarette feels like it can fix all symptoms you're having now, it's hard to keep going.
I've quit smoking for a decade now, but am still a nicotine addict. I'm glad I'm not coughing up yellow phlegm and short of breath all the time, but life becomes hell and I become irrational if I haven't had my dose.
I wish I'd never started.
Wish in one hand shit in the other. See which fills up first.