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I'm weird. A crush makes me act odd, feel shy and cringe at myself.
But a couple times I've been full-on infatuated. And that feeling somehow allows me to tap into a bottomless well of absolute confidence, and not using that to pursue that person with everything I have seems unthinkable.
Completely opposite effects.
I'm not sure what the difference is between crush and infatuated (is one sexual or something?) but I feel like the person I like just makes me so comfortable that when I'm with them I am way more confident. I don't really have that with anybody else.
Infatuation is closer to "obsession" in meaning. It's typically used to describe when people are so in love, they lose control of some parts of their behaviour. Which I definitely have been.
I'm weird. A crush makes me act odd, feel shy and cringe at myself.
I think that's completely normal human behaviour.
I don't feel it should be, but it seems like it is.But a couple times I've been full-on infatuated. And that feeling somehow allows me to tap into a bottomless well of absolute confidence
How does one gain this superpower?
I'm aware, the wierd part is that I experience the two completely opposite effects.
And I dunno, but it's awesome. Like suddenly being yourself but at 200% power. The feelings of affection were so powerful, the need to be with the person so overbearing, the thought of not giving it my best shot was unthinkable. Just considering the possibility of not being with them was impossible (until it actually happened). The usual self doubt and overthinking just... Didn't occur.
I'm pretty sure it's a matter of intensity. The first time was overwhelming, made every feeling I'd had before, of any kind, look like a joke.