Actually asking (rule)

Work or government issued.

I hate my gender, hate my body. Wish I could flip a switch and be anything else but I'm too afraid of the stigma to transition.

But I recognize that society, the government, doctors, my family, see me as a boy. So I use he/him.

In my mind its they/he. Some sort of demiboy or non binary, idk. I don't want gender. I feel trapped.