Not a personal website, but I’m currently working on my portfolio site for when it’s time to find a job. I’m in school for software development. I’ve made websites using Wordpress templates and very basic html/css long before but now I’m actually trying to code mine from scratch with html/css/js now that I’ve learned enough in school. It is really fun, especially when you find cool tricks and they work!
This reminds me of the time I saw some folks fill up about 30 ish helium balloons in a store then walk out to their small car. I couldn’t help but laugh as they went from smiling to panicking when they realized they had no way to fit them inside. It was hilarious. I still wonder what they ended up doing to get the balloons home lol.
Just got the news last week that my dad, who was diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer in October, might have 5-7 months left. Plus my mom is slowly dying from COPD. I’m trying to stay positive and spend what might be the last Christmas we get with them. But to say I’m not feeling the happy new year vibes is an understatement. Only death and more depression coming in 2024.
A horror movie called It’s Alive. I was 5 years old. My mom would rent horror movies without checking the ratings and I’d watch them. Even after this I always loved horror and never had nightmares or anything. But, I rewatched It’s Alive a few years ago and it is definitely not for kids… But honestly the craziest thing my mom rented was The Toxic Avenger, when I was maybe 10. She never saw it herself it so still has no idea what she allowed me to watch at a young age!
Almost at one month… but man, did I pick a time to stop drinking…. my grandma passed away Wednesday, and then yesterday my dad was hospitalized and diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.
As much as my brain tells me a drink might help how I’m feeling, I know it won’t and I will feel worse for it. IWNDWYT.
Great idea! I think by the time the party comes I’ll have informed my close friends. I already asked one to make some non alcoholic Jell-O shots for me lol. Also, I’m being a pirate this year and I bought a cool pirate mug to drink from and I’m gonna pour NA beers or coke and lime like you said and carry it around all night. I’m hoping that as long as I have something in my hand, people won’t ask.
Thank you! I think the weird part for me is that I’m so emotional over telling people. I told my neighbor I’m not drinking and said I’d still like to come over to visit. She didn’t reply for a while and I got really upset, because it almost feels like I’m going through a breakup. It’s isolating. But then she replied and said no worries, she’s gonna make us hot chocolate instead! So yeah, you’re right that my friends will likely be supportive. It’s just this time I’m not lying to myself and telling people feels like a really big deal because I really mean it.
I really hope I pick up some new hobbies and activities, and get my health back on track too.
September 16 I had my last glass of alcohol. I was a weekend binger, always with groups of friends. I’ve been frustrated with so many things lately, my weight gain and aches and pains, wasted days from hangovers, just generally feeling unwell. We had our anniversary on the 16th and went to a club that had a Latin band playing and salsa dancing. I wanted to dance but my feet hurt because I have bad plantar fasciitis and heel spurs, and I’m very overweight. So instead we sat and ate and drank and enjoyed the music. I was feeling kind of crappy and sad that I’ve let myself get to this point.
Then we ran into a friend we haven’t seen in 12 years or so, he was on the dance floor and dancing like professional salsa dancer. The last time I saw him he was struggling with drugs and alcohol. Once I got talking to him, he told me he has been sober for 6 years and learned salsa and bachata and is loving life. I finished my glass of wine and told myself that was the last.
So here I am 3 weeks later and now the initial struggle is finally hitting. I feel like I’m not ready to announce my sobriety yet, but now people are inviting me for drinks and stuff. My neighbor just asked me to come over for a fire and have some whiskey. I’m having a hard time navigating that. We also have year 10 of our Halloween party coming up at the end of the month. Usually an absolute drinking fest. I’m excited to go and have been working on my costume for a couple weeks already but having the conversations with people about not drinking just seems infinitely difficult.
Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.
I found out the difference between just normal dislike and phobias a few years ago. I dislike insects and they make me jumpy but I wasn’t terrified of any of them, even spiders. Until I had an encounter with giant carpenter ants, both the normal ones and the ones with wings.
I was living in my RV and apparently it was their nesting season, and I come from a different province and normally never see large ants like these. I kept finding them everywhere in my trailer, these giant ants, like I’d open a drawer and pull out a dish cloth and one would be underneath it. I was crying hysterically and shaking and I would rather have died than come across another one. It went on for about 3 days, I barely slept because the fuckers were crawling all over the ceiling and walls at night.
I went and picked up ant killer spray and went scorched earth on them. Within a day there were dozens of dead ones inside the trailer and probably thousands outside in the gravel. It was crazy. Neighbouring campers had these ants too, I guess it was normal nesting season there and no one worried about it much. They started to comment that the ants were disappearing earlier. I didn’t tell them it was me lol. But yeah, I have a phobia I wasn’t expecting and I lose my shit when I see them to this day.
I’m very sure I’ll be able to contribute to this conversation at the end of the semester. I have an Organizational Behavior class and the teacher is a prick, narcissist and a bully. Treating us adults like we are misbehaving children and gaslighting us every class.
It’s interesting how it affects people differently. When I lost my sense of smell with COVID, bad smells were the last to return. I could smell everything else but couldn’t smell bathroom smells, eggs, skunk, or weed (debatable if the last one is bad or not, but either way it was gone). It was nice, I was hoping to only smell nice things forever, but it came back.
Cold Pursuit
I saw it in theatres and I remember people weren’t laughing and some were walking out because they were bored. I can guarantee that all of them saw Liam Neeson was the lead and were expecting another action packed Taken type movie. What we got instead was a movie reminiscent of Fargo or The Big Lebowski. It’s absolutely hilarious, I’ve watched it many times and I’ve shown friends this one and they’ve all loved it. Highly recommend!
I’m in Canada. We’ve never gotten junk mail because our mail delivery person put a green sticker inside the box that says no flyers. We never asked for it, it was always just there. When they upgraded the mail boxes, they put new stickers in too. It’s awesome.
I finished my first semester of software development school last week. I struggled with c# programming and at one point a couple months ago I was so upset I seriously considered dropping out. But I kept at it and handed in assignments, not confident in my code. Anyways, I just got my final marks back and I got A+ in that course… and all my other courses too!
Also… I’ve been depressed for 2 days, I think I needed this post to remind me of the good things in life. I’m enjoying reading everyone’s answers!
The old turn it off and turn it back on solution, i always forget it exists… I should have tried it first!
You were right, but I have never encountered that bug before. Weird. Anyways, problem solved!
I just uninstalled and reinstalled the app and I can literally watch the icon change randomly. It is showing the old one but when I tap to open the app it briefly flashes the new icon before returning to the old one. Anyways, I’ll do the iOS update overnight and try again in the morning!
That was the first thing I checked, and nope!
ios 16.3.1. I’m gonna do a software update and see if that changes anything since I see there’s one available for iOS. Whats the weirdest is that when I search for the app on my phone, the correct icon shows up in the search results, but everywhere else it’s the old one.
I’m totally cool with the federation with lemmyNSFW instance and actually I made an account over there so I could subscribe to my favorite porn subs.
But, I’d also prefer to keep it separate from my lemmy.ca account feed. I don’t like to use the block nsfw option in my profile because NSFW isn’t just sexual content/porn. So basically, it would be awesome if there were a way to optionally block the entire instance on an account level, or optionally just not have posts from lemmyNSFW show up in All & Local. Communities are rapidly being created and I’ll never keep up blocking them one by one. I know not everyone likes to keep things separate and that’s why I’m wondering if this can be an option in a future update.
