No need to hit that close to home and i cant really blame my father for being emotionally absent. It's kinda hard to be emotionally present or present at all form under the ground.
Mother was unstable, i suspect mostly due to undiagnosed ADHD and emotional dysregulation.
Though yeah, hyper independent is rather accurate. Overwhelming majority of the time it's just easier for me to do everything myself than to explain or hope that someone else does it and yeah asking for help is rather difficult as well.
Anxiety is there as well, though not as debilitating anymore.
Burnout is missing or it's just too vague for me to notice and consciously experience.
VM or a different machine should already eliminate device fingerprint and as long as you don't log in with any of your existing accounts to the new machines browser. Then there's no history or cookies to carry over either. Obviously avoiding local network as well or at least masking it.
At that point from Reddit perspective, you are just like a brand new person joining.
Not in every instance, but a completely blank slate aka no browser ID and a new device fingerprint would be suspicious on it's own. While it wouldn't link it back to your old users, at least initially as the machine algorithm doesn't have enough data yet.
Doing anything that doesn't really fit into a profile of a new user, will get you shadowbanned, but the appealing process for that doesn't work. Artificial ageing could work as the detection algorithms ramp down after some time.
Yeah they have really ramped up detection and banning with new machine algorithms, starting somewhere late last year or beginning of this year.
Though there aren't any official documents on how exactly it's done, for obvious reasons thats kept as a secret. It's mostly collated by user reports who have trial and error it to try to bypass detection and lots of googling and moderators reports.
So if you're really bored you can try to refine it even more. Make a VM, create a fake history on it, make a reddit user, leave it marinate for few months, slowly start to interact and see what happens then.
Just report back.
That's a rather good explanation. Thank you. I do agree with the observation part, even though most of the time there isn't anything noticable to observe for me. I just couldn't really understand where the validation part plays into this.
Yeah you're completely right practicing of noticing those has been rather helpful.
It has thought me to notice negative thinking patterns which can spiral and eventually lead to negative emotions, which can eventually lead to depression.
That makes sense. Does that mean that when others are saying "you're feelings are valid" is kinda their way to reinforce or help with that internal validation?
Device fingerprint, browser ID, text and behavioral analysis and some more unknown things.
Basically you have to buy a new phone, make completely brand new google/apple users on that phone, never use your home WiFi for Reddit ever again, that IP is tainted permanently. Then make it appear that the phone has actual history instead of a just a blank slate. Then join Reddit, but don't do anything atypical of a new user, otherwise you get shadowbanned aka not joining too many subs in rapid succession, not having full blown discussions. Basically laying low for a few weeks to months.
Obviously I'm not special or unique and that's the beauty of it. There's always someone on the internet who has had similar experiences and has already figured it out. That's why i still keep asking from the hive mind of the internet until i do stumble upon someone who knows.
Thanks to finding out about piracy rather early there was no longer the financial limitations either.
So yeah playing in childhood was much better.
I could actually focus and go along with storylines and actually have time to practice and get better at games.
Nowadays, story based games are completely out, because once i eventually can play again i would need a recap of what happened last time and thats ignoring the fact that as soon as i put on earphones to even try to focus on a game, my wife instantly gets jealous and tries to do everything possible to get some attention.Similarly for any team based or skill based games, there just isn't time to practice. So all multiplayer games are out as well, because it kinda sucks when in the evening i eventually can boot up my PC, start a game, launch a match and then get insta killed by past version of myself(basement dwelling 14 year old who practices every waking moment).
Yeah the imposter syndrome is rather common among ADHD and ASD people as well. While ADHD doesn't directly effect long term memory, but it does effect recalling and saving ability aka cant really recall something the brain decided wasn't interesting enough to memorize and that's presuming the brain even decided it wants to try and recall something specific.
No worries, it can be mentally rather difficult to get the diagnosis, though once that is done it's like a weight being lifted from your shoulders.
But in the meanwhile, until you're ready. No one is stopping you in relating ADHD memes and using tips that help people with ADHD to deal with day to day life better.
You can check out how to ADHD on YT, she seems to be one of the more healthiest approaches to dealing with all sorts of issues coming from it. Unless you already know that channel.
Yeah i hear you. Nagging about it, "you'd remember if it we're important" or " you haven't made any memories" got under my skin as well.
Though last year i finally found an answer to that, for me it's SDAM(severly deficient autobiographical memory).
Yeah i can forget words in my native language as well. Though that's not long term memory issue, just recalling on command issue. Your long term, episodic memory is rather good.
I completely lack that episodic memory and just retain rough gist of the event, if anything at all.
No need to hit that close to home and i cant really blame my father for being emotionally absent. It's kinda hard to be emotionally present or present at all form under the ground. Mother was unstable, i suspect mostly due to undiagnosed ADHD and emotional dysregulation.
Though yeah, hyper independent is rather accurate. Overwhelming majority of the time it's just easier for me to do everything myself than to explain or hope that someone else does it and yeah asking for help is rather difficult as well. Anxiety is there as well, though not as debilitating anymore. Burnout is missing or it's just too vague for me to notice and consciously experience.