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  • I'm kinda aware of my perfectionism and I'm trying to do things regardless of it, but I just can't stop thinking about all my flaws, real or not. Wherever I am I'm constantly thinking about what others may think of me and I know it's bs and most people don't give a shit about me but I just can't help it. It's like I'm just unable to do anything for myself anymore, no matter what I do I'm always thinking of other people's opinion and hoping someone would praise me for what I do. I've been nothing but constantly criticized by people around me and I no longer know if I do things correctly, because most of the time I get told I'm wrong.

  • it's not that I don't want to go out, there's just nowhere to go for people in mid 30, at least around where I live. Also been suffering from social anxiety most of my life and only recently got it under control with meds which made me crave social interactions more than ever.

  • I don't have many social interactions apart from people at work and maybe some online friends but it's rare. Honestly I don't know what to do about it. Last year I went to a concert for the first time ever and decided to do that at least once a year. I'm going to see Iron Maiden next year, I may not have any close friends but at least I'd have some fun experiences to remember I guess...

  • I've bought a used PSP with some games and one of them was Monster Hunter Freedom Unite. The game felt really weird, slow, pretty confusing and most of all quite difficult. Since I couldn't get any new games I had no choice but to play the ones I got (I've had Patapon, Burnout and like two other, can't remember). I've been pretty intrigued by the game, it was unlike anything I've ever played and I kinda like the cozy atmosphere of the village, the little farm, had a nice selection of interesting weapons. I kept playing the game in small chunks until it all just kinda clicked and I've been a fan of the series ever since (even though I'm still not that good at it).