Being ND it feels that my senses are already too much sometimes and they become even more amplified by the amount of stress I experience. Honestly I'd rather have the option to decrease the intensity of sensory experiences than increase it. 😅
There are various factors that increase the risk of course, but according to the doctors for a person this young the exposure is not the reason for getting sick. Epigenetics could be the reason for the increase in young people's mouth cancers as epigenetic changes in genes can transmit across generations, meaning it's possible that, for example, environmental exposure that occurred in one generation, could be transmitted even further beyond their children and grandchildren.
Yup. My SO got mouth cancer a couple years back in their early 30's, even though the operation was succesful and chemo & radiation worked and they'll be considered cancer-free in about 9 months, the fact that it happened so early means it's quite likely they'll get it again. How does one live with that information? And as a partner how do I build my life around it? Of course it's possible they'll never get that shit again, but it would be foolish to not prepare ourselves mentally for the worst. If it's around the head they can't get more radiation. If it's in the same place than the previous one they'd would probably lose their ability speak, eat properly etc. The chemo probably made them infertile so if we'd like to have biological childer we have just a couple years to make the decision, and I have restrictions about that so we'd have to look for other opportunities anyways, and we should start looking for them now but we * can't *. If we move elsewhere, as we'd like to, the chances are they won't get as good treatment as here. I don't feel like I'm ready to consider all this in my mid 30's while I'm still trying to find my place in the world. So yeah, fuck cancer.
Many of us experience similar after getting the diagnosis, it's quite eye-opening to finally have a proper explanation to a lot of things! You are you and perhaps now you will have more space for the actual you when there's (hopefully) less need for masking, for example!
I've been listening to Patrick Teahan's podcast about CPTSD and the episode about rebuilding lost sense of self really struck me. Basically we are our feelings, interests etc and maybe after years and years of misinterpreting ourselves getting the diagnosis will finally let us trust our * real * feelings and thoughts instead the interpetations others and the society put on us. I hope that didn't sound too grim. Congrats on the diagnosis! :)
I'm usually grumpy in the morning and feeling rarher down until 15-16, after that my mood gets a lot better, evenings and night time is best for me. If I have to wake up really early I feel just empty.
Elvanse can make the afternoon crash worse and it also causes a depression hour at around 17, I've tried taking half the dose in the morning and half mid-day and it seems to help with the crashes but it also makes the quality of my sleep worse...
Exhausted from recent social events. Today was supposed to be my alone time day but my SO took the day off and I couldn't really relax. I'm thinking about escaping to the cottage at the end of the week, hoping there are no neighbours present like last week...
I just heat up some frozen veggies, pretty good with kimchi!
Raw porridge is a good breakfast (and lunch) option, but you need to put it in the fridge the night before. I mix some oats, seeds, nuts and berries or fruit in a container and add soy/oat milk and some yoghurt (high protein soy yoghurt is best). Fresh dates are a superior sweetener and cinnamon + cardamom give a nice twist. 1/2 container of dry stuff and fill it up with liquid. I used to live on this stuff.
I'm at the summer cottage, picking berries and thinking about doing gardening. Yesterday we had thunder and today it's sunshine. I really prefer late summer and autumn to early summer, it's so chill!
Ananääs @ Jojowski @sopuli.xyz Posts 11Comments 383Joined 2 yr. ago
10°c and raining here... We had about 4 weeks of summer.