today was tough but i made it through. got a meeting in 30mins, day 6. been one week since I absolutely sent it and I swear im still hungover.
day 5, meeting tonight, silently hyped. iwndwyt
IM BACK. for good this time.
-trigger warning-too many to count last friday i drank 30 beers and 3/4 bottle of scotch, was generally belligerent and self injuring so the ambulance was called, I got restrained and woke up in a padded room still smashed punching the glass and screaming, crashed again and woke up in mhicu, mental health intensive care unit, sober now and realising where I was, I was on best behaviour.
place sucks. no telly, no books no radio, fights every few hours, super heavy furniture, big frownie face on the wall written in blood. I literally sat and watched the clock for over 9hrs during the 3.5 days.
ive got an AA meeting in 3hrs. IWNDWYT
morning all, day 16 have a good one
13 days. big anxiety and depression, too many coffee and cigarettes. supposed to be at work where I'll be surrounded by a couple hundred thousand litres of wine in tanks and barrels, plus i manage the warehouse where there's about 250,000 bottles of finished product. have to pass a breathalyzer at start and end of shift.
sounds like a dangerous place for an alcoholic to work but i can't stand the stuff. wouldn't last long in a brewery.
day ten first proper cravings and horrible gut feeling like impending doom but made it through the day.
woops v late. I need to set an alarm. day 10! first proper cravings today but pushed through and drove past 2 bottleshops. v proud of me. iwndwyt
i got my cat back from my parents too! it's been a non stop cuddle puddle :D
happy wednesday homies. still day 8, outta hospy, first day back at work, just got home, plum tuckered out. iwndwyt and see you all tomorrow :)
i am oh so late but im on day 8! fresh out of detox and back at work in the pink cloud phase! I'll see u guys in 3 hrs! iwndwyt.
kek what movie is this I remember that guy from little nicky
mass effect 3 multiplayer. absolutely loved being a krogan vanguard or a geth prime w siege pulse.
it still connects... sometimes. i usually try once a day. fucking ea.
aaron schwartz rolling in his grave
hell let loose has neat system for snipers, requires 2 players, 1 sniper 1 spotter and as a result almost everyone runs infantry. fun game, very battlefieldy.
im tryna quit its hard