I’m non-binary and trans-femme. I am taking feminizing HRT but I have zero desire to pass as a cis woman. I want to exist within the deconstruction of the gender binary and be a shining example of humanity fitting into the queerness that is all around us in nature. It’s sometimes a scary place to exist, but it feels very authentic to myself, and has contextualized a lot of my childhood in a way that makes a lot of sense. Seems like you could be similar, but maybe leaning more into gender fluidity than totally trans-femme??