This all depends on your area of expertise, but in general, I would say you either get to pick your job or pick where you live, not both. If it is a specialized type of work, you need to move to wherever they have positions. If you're okay working retail, you can work anywhere.
Hey there. I've been there. It's so hard and seems impossible, you're completely right. My heart aches for you.
Take some time to grieve and start to get back to a routine, slowly expose yourself to people by going to a restaurant or aquarium. Reflect on how you can feel connected to the world again, think of what brings you joy and start to do it again. Or even, what you think would bring you joy and dip your foot in it. Go for a road trip to a nearby forest or mountain or piece of nature that you haven't taken the time to visit yet. Breathe some fresh air daily. You can do this, you can move forward. You aren't leaving them behind. Some days get easier and some don't, but you can get through it.
This was a very neat experiment indeed! Even though I started it about mid-way on my grief period.
Every time I thought about the lady that left me, I clicked my clicker (the red line).
We were together for 1-2 months. I recall it took 2-3 months to get over it.
How'd you know I've spent the last month completely stuck in a literal US State that I don't live in, but got kinda comfortably complacent here because it's so peaceful and the price of fuel is fantastic compared to the state I need to go to where the jobs there pay much better because the cost of living is so much higher which also means there's more stress & traffic & crime,
so it makes me want to stay here where I am with no stress, no crime, no traffic, but the pay here would be lower but I've got to make a decision soon before my bank account runs dry, I need to get a job somewhere soon,
So every day all day long my mind keeps ping-ponging back & forth between these two options, so the result is I've been sitting here doing nothing because each decision would affect the rest of my life in drastically different ways, and choosing one or the other is agonizing and I just can't.