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broke up with my girlfriend earlier this week, i was quite shocked when she said that. Cried for like an hour that day which was quite surprising that i had the capacity to cry like that, can't imagine how that would've gone if i was on e
atleast i'm doing better academically
Decided that I rather be visibly trans than hide my fem looks at home. However, I kinda hate standing out among others, which is already impossible not to do when Im 2 meters tall, even more so when I dont pass and likely never will.
Any tips on gaining the confidence to continue, and getting into the mindset of not caring what others think? My local area is not that dangerous, but also not 100% friendly, which makes me over think this a lot.
- If you can find spaces outside of home where you're comfortable being yourself, you can use it as an opportunity to learn that it's safe to be genuine and then push things as you get more comfortable.
  I found outfits that suited me really well. And then I went out and felt self conscious anyway, but when my friends spontaneously complimented me, it started changing.
  Confidence takes time, but you'll get there. The trick isn't to not care what others think, it's to only care about people what the right people think.
Well... i fucked up in an honestly impressive way. I was systematically wiping all my USB thumb drives, and once completed realized i didn't verify my backups. Instead i had the completely empty folder structure of my pictures.
Surprise! I lost the last ten+ years of pictures. All I've got is whatever facebook had and whatever i still had on my current phone. I can probably recover a good amount of cat pictures from my parents?
On the positive note, I DID get my last paycheck WITH PTO payout by some miracle, so.... that's pretty good for my anxiety.
- Damn, that really sucks. If you haven't written anything to the drives since then, the pictures should actually still be there, just unaccessable. There are different pieces of software you could try to use to recover it, I've had a bit of success with one called Recuva (i think).
  
  I opted for the slower route of zeroing out the drives. Thats part of why its impressive, i did that across like 8 portable storage devices, ALL of which had a backup 🫠
- glad you got your last paycheck and PTO payout! 🙌
It's been a funny little year for me, but I think all the pain has changed me in some important ways. Glad to say I've been sober for ages now, I'm legitimately happy, stable and thriving.
This last week has been positive, me and all my friends are being evicted from my favourite space in the city today but we've finally got a new home lined up for our federation and not only should it be permanent, it's so much bigger and better, we really lucked out. In just under a week, they'll be voting to let my trans activism collective join and I'm unbelievably excited.
It's really cool to say I've gone from a terrified anxious mess just trying to find a social life to someone who looks after people, helps keep things running and builds community. I'm proud of me, I'm glad I survived this year 😊

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