Good story

You will feel a lot of guilt and pleasure after a great dose of Fentanyl

Watching interracial porn dressed up as Adolf Hitler.

But did they enjoy it?

Sounds more like the musings of a hedonist than a badass. The incoordination and head trauma are not as far off brand as he thinks it is.

What do you have against hedonists? I think it's pretty bad ass to be happy regardless of how others judge you.
- That's not what hedonism is. Hedonism is the pursuit of physical pleasure as the primary purpose in life. The problem with that is our brains are very good at moving our emotional goalposts to adapt to our circumstances, so we end up chasing greater and greater pleasures in a process called the "hedonic treadmill."
  Billionaires are a good example of this. They get their kicks from watching their bank account go up and acquiring new things. But their brains quickly adapt to the new "normal", and then they need a higher number or newer thing. It's never enough.
- A lot of what we define as pleasurable in this part of the world is driven by consumerism or other environmentally unsustainably/harmful activity. If your pleasurable activities account for your impact on all living things then by all means knock yourself out. Most hedonists I've known do not demonstrate this degree of introspection and often are looking for fleeting pleasures to mask trauma or other mental health challenges.
- It's a fine philosophy but it's hard to make it last. Most hedonists either burn out or become cynics.
  There is a balance where you are always at the edge of hedonism, just close but not quite offsides. But almost inevitably there is that fall.
- I'm sure the ghost of Jeffery Epstein appreciates your support.
  I will generally not fault someone for what they like, but engaging in whatever it is without regard for others is not a recipe for a good society. Sure, don't care what everyone thinks, but there are plenty of reasons to not do something that would bring you pleasure.
Hedonism IS pretty badass when done ethically and collectively.
Maximizing pleasure and minimizing pain in the world is a much better thing to live for than accruing capital or assuring that people within a certain geographical area have it better than others if you ask me 🤷
- The reason why it isn't badass is it prioritizies self over others. Under a hedonistic worldview, your own pleasure matters more than another living beings pain.
  It aligns well with capitalism and its inventivization of personal enrichment even if at an expense to others.
  In my view being "badass" is taking care of each other, even the supposed "least" amongst us (if we are to believe in such hierarchies), as our superheros and religious figures are written.
  There's a reason we have immortalized such figures and I would describe exactly none of them as hedonistic. Rather they often take on incredible personal pain to bring safety and security to others. That is what I would call badass.
- Maximizing pleasure and minimizing pain in the world is a much better thing to live for than accruing capital or assuring that people within a certain geographical area have it better than others if you ask me 🤷
  Sure but that doesn't make it badass.

Feels badass. Works in a room with a whiteboard.

you know what's badass? being stuck in a room full of hungry angry teenagers that smell like ass and balls for eight hours a day five days a week over the span of 20 years for $32k a year and not once succumbing to the dark desires of killing yourself.
- That’s oddly specific.