How's your week been?
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It was ok, i just feel I'm not making much progress on my questionning like previous weeks. At times I feel like my transition is miles away, or like a fantasy. But I imagine myself as a girl and i feel strong gender euphoria so... I guess i'm making steps in the right direction. I just don't know what to do next.
I ordered makeup on amazon tho, can't wait to try it
I just don't know what to do next.
I'm curious whether you mean in terms of transition, or questioning? It kind of sounds like you already know what you want to do?
Questionning, i guess ? Sorry if I'm being confusing, it's just that I'm confused... This is all new to me .-.
To put some context I live with roomates and although I told them I might experiment some things like makeup, it still takes some "social effort" to really do it. Like dressing up, I wouldn't know where and how to start...
On top of that, I still have some kind of impostor syndrom for some reason. The dissonance is tyring, so I just lie in bed, try to read frieren and play caves of qud
The workweek was meh, but I went to a local pride festival yesterday and followed it up today with a topless hike with some local furries in a nice secluded canyon. I'm very happy to be getting a lot of sun this summer, turns out that a bit of a tan makes me sexy as hell. =3
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It's been okay. I made the mistake of drinking apple juice (I know, how dare I???) and my IBS has flared up like nothing else. I've only just gotten to a point where I'm not running to the toilet, after a week. Ugh. IBS sucks arse.
More fitness goodness. I put serjous time into doing weights after cardio and ow bicep curls OW. It hurts to fully extend my elbows since i woke up saturday. Hoping its a fair bit better when i wake up tomorrow/today (like 2 am where im at)
Looked in a mirror earlier aaaaand oh god the hair thinning. Why tf do i keep procrastinating getting put on something for my hair...
Had a good week, work was okay, correction on my nose job went well without any issues and not even having to wait very long. I got rejected for a job I applied to but it would've meant a move so I'm not that bothered about it. Applied to appear on stage at a radical pride event and was rejected as well, which bums me out more than the job haha. Have been talking to some people for stage appearances and readings and am very busy preparing new stories and texts for upcoming open calls! Otherwise, next week I have my first appointment concerning SRS, looking forward and a bit afraid something goes wrong with insurance or something else I didn't predict.
Mildly okay. I got back from a rehab retreat and I'm feeling better health wise, but not much better emotionally since the whole reason I relapsed was because I was doomscrolling and ended up getting really scared as an enby in a progressively more queerphobic world which wants to hurt me and take my rights away. It's depressing and also really scary.
That's sad but also hilarious. Glad you're happy about it, anyway.