how did you deal with your parents cutting you off if they did?

Hello,

This is easily the hardest thing i’ve ever done.

2 weeks ago in the middle of the night i took all my things and left. my parents have been begging for me to come back saying how i am disrespecting them, my family, and religion. at first they wanted me to come home and kept calling me my grandparents came from out of town.

i was too scared to go back they offered me everything one exchange for living with them and being in their religion.

yesterday i told them that leaving my girlfriend will be hard and i cannot suppress my feelings like they want.

anyway if you imagine the worst it was that.

i literally read to hold my mom down from expiring. my dad beat the shit out of me bc i am doing this to my mom.

i am 23 i am young idk if i go back and just stfu for my whole life or just keep going. someone please help i am so scared.

yesterday she told me i can come back and have the life i want as long as it’s halal and obeys god. but if i dont come back i can consider them dead. i just need help is it worth it to choose myself over my family?