Overexerted and overtrained when exercising a few years ago, fucked up my knee. Endless issues since then.
I struggled with depression a lot when I was growing up. And to deal with it, I ate my feelings, and gained a ton of weight. Even though I've lost most of the weight, (down from 350lbs to 200lbs) my body is never going to look good due to the stretch marks and loose skin.
Hey, you're killing it. I'm proud of you.
Stretch marks and loose skin are signs of your achievement, as far as I'm concerned.But i also understand that lack of alignment with conventional beauty srandards can be frustrating, and that's valid.
Maybe you wont quite attain your 'ideal' form but that doesn't mean you cant "look good". Looking good is more about fit than form and getting a good fit is absolutely attainable. I've seen so many imperfect-bodied people looking downright snazzy in what they wear.
Remember: our flaws are magnified in our own vision and others may not even notice.
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Sat at a desk all day.
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Manual labour all day
Both
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Addicted to nicotine for about 33 years. I've been vaping only for a year now but I have no way of stopping and, unlike a cigarette, they never go out, so the addiction is only getting worse. I quit smoking for 3 months a few years ago and wore patches but I cried for minimum 6 hours a day the entire time. Once I forgot to put on my patch and cried through a whole shift at work, couldn't stop. I didn't even bother asking someone for a smoke on break because I knew that unending despair was my entire future so temporary relief was pointless. I have no health problems yet but by the time I stopped smoking it was costing me more than rent.
I struggled with this for a long time too. Nicotine is an absolute bitch. You can retire that habit though, you just need to actually convince yourself you are done, and then throw all that shit away, and just be frustrated for a week or two, and then never buy it again. There will be a few months where your brain will frequently nag you, but just tell it to fuck off and you are in charge, that feeling does become less and less overtime. The first week is a bit rough, but if you know that, it's much easier.
You cannot use the patch, or anything else with nicotine, as a crutch. Rip the band-aid off, you will be ok, and you can fucking do it, I know because I did. I've done some pretty hard shit in my life, and this was up there, but it is absolutely surmountable. Just make the decision, let the people in your life know and ask them to give you some grace for a few weeks, thank them for the support, and just fucking do it. Cold turkey is the only way, and it's very possible, you just need to decide.
Pushed it too hard for too long.
Considering that one branch of my family runs towards joint and spinal issues, it might not have been the best of ideas to power lift, or pick a job that involved picking people up in awkward conditions. Or a martial art that involves hitting the ground hard and repeatedly.
Yeah. So, while I would have had the same issues eventually, I likely would have had another ten to fifteen years before it got bad with different choices.
Don't really regret much of it though.
Ate and drank too much without enough exercise when I was younger.
Had a tattoo which although not a name, represents the name of former controlling partner. When I can afford it it's getting a cover up. Luckily it's on my chest and I'm not a Geordie so people don't see it. Otherwise it'd be gone now.
I just wish i took better care of mine. I do my best but my best isn't great.
Something specific, though:
TMI
I wish i had better sexual education when i was young. I wish i had known about/had access to a sleeve. Now I have reduced feeling and spots of numbness.
Male puberty
Also not taking care of my ears, fuck tinnitus
I am deaf in one ear because I stood too close to the bass bin in a notorious London club. I have a hearing aid that helps a bit.
