I hate being within arms reach of people so fuck your subways and your neurotypical ease with dealing with ridiculously overstimulating stress-filled situations
If you're a regular subway rider or grew up riding one (such as my neurodivergent ass) you start to realize that you're just a person in a sea of people on the train. The anonymizing actually helps with my anxiety.
Appreciate it, thankfully it slid off my ribs and only needed stitches but that was nearly half a century ago and I still have to do a lot of mental prep work to sit down that close to strangers
Also as for your 'don't look like a person who wants to get stabbed again' line, I know you made it as a joke but statistically autists are targeted for violence by abusers and those abusers describe it all as visual cues that lead them to violence so maybe something to consider.
My fear of being stabbed again isn't 100% rational and won't just go away because I cross an imaginary geographic line
PEOPLE are insane, just the U.S. has a higher concentration