Late response but depression is creeping back in after a very long stretch of feeling great.
I had a day where felt off, I was just dizzy and my head felt totally wrong, and I’ve been kinda depressed the last few days.
It’s that kind of depression where my brain feels like a sponge wrung dry of all interest and joy and emotion. I don’t like it.
Today I experimented with some art. Tried a new medium: charcoal on canvas, and I enjoyed the process. The outcome was okay but there’s a lot more to learn about technique.
I was going to cook a stew today but the lamb stunk. So that sucked.
I'm having a good week!
And i hope your next week is good, too :)
Thanks mate back at you
Struggling with my resistence to seek therapy.
(No need to give me suicide hotline numbers or anything. I'm not suicidal. Just trying to convince myself it has the potential to do me more good than harm to actually get therapy.)
Ah same :/ it's accelerated by the fact i have to drive hours to visit my psychologist lol.
I forgot to schedule an appointment to refill my anxiety meds and am having a very difficult time of it. Should be able to pick them up tomorrow, but I am currently listening to my neighbors throw a bloc party and I feel like dying (in a hyperbolic way). My country is also figuratively on fire and I have not been able to write a decent poem since Jan 20.
So....could be better lol
Struggling with money loss (started trading) and bad work environment (highly political snakes ). Some depression too with losing a lot of hair.
Sorry about that, i hope you cover the lost money, and figure out what to do about the job environment.
I love drawing so much but the presence of so many AI art generators is hurting my sanity.
If it helps, i would never enjoy art made by AI. A huge (arguably, one of the biggest) tenets of all art for me, is the love, effort or creator themselves poured into it.
For example, i absolutely love and adore MASTERBOOTRECORD and i think an AI would never be able to recreate victor's love and sweat poured into his projects.
Same thing with beautiful art. Art is meant to represent a message, and when you look at a work, you see its message. AI does not care about the messaging and undertones of art, it just paints pixels on a canvas, following instructions lifelessly.
I think most are wrong about art, it can never be created by an AI. At least, i wouldn't enjoy it at all. It's just machines following orders but not really thinking about what they do, or making it from the heart.
