There is absolutely ni way i could stand through the current situation for a decade. Not even a year. Currently every day feels like torture. Even the 4 weeks until I Am no longer at my parents home are horrible to just think about.
I'm at my 1 year mark of closeted smashed egg, sucks but its a bit less frustrating than it was at first. I have personal long term goals for myself now. I know more terminology and I'm more aware of current events and how they might impact me (now or in the future).
Hell, its a big change in just having long term goals. Feeling like I'm allowed to have long term goals, allowed to want things in life and to pursue goals.
Damn, that sucks. I absolutely hate my current position and I devinetively want to end this as soon as possible. Theres no way I could withstand this for years without going literally insane.
I lived in denial for way too long, that's for sure. Didn't even realize just how badly it was weighing on me 'til that first dose of hormone therapy blew it away like a bad dream.