I'd like to comfortably exist in a better place, maybe I could fit in an intentional community but that seems unlikely for a lot of reasons especially within the range that my legs could take me.
I'm being like this for years lol.
The only thing for now that helped me focus on myself is cannabis, but since I'm not a frequent user I try not to force myself to this route every time I use it, so it won't become a chore
I struggle doing the things I want to do bc I feel like my energy is sapped up just trying to survive day to day, it’s at least comforting to know there are other people who feel alien to our normative society