I want the entirety of mathematics indellably etched into my mental model. I want to see the math behind everything in reality the way Neo saw the matrix code in the walls of the grubby apartment buildings.
Speaking Korean, I live here for 4 years already and despite pushing moderatelly to learn it, I don't speak it at all. Everything I learn I forget very fast again.
If I could have something magical: I'd like to be able to accelerate my thinking so I can have as long as I want to think things through
If it's gotta be real: easier to use memory, I feel like I have no idea what's going on bc I forget shit, but it's not forgotten I just didn't remember that memory at the right time even though I had it..
Whatever skills would result in what the deep mediators to control autonomic functions like heartrate and could mimic death. I don't just want the control thing though I want the whole kit that comes with it which would likely have some martial arts. figure like and ideal shaolin type of thing.
I'd love to know how to dance, I mean really properly dance for every situation, not just a generic two foot shuffle. I've seen some people who can dance properly and they looked cool as fuck.
The ability to deal with the rush and then persistence of negative feeling whenever anything bad happens, my routine is thrown off, or even I have to do something I'd rather not, because I do not cope well with any of those, and it causes me to shut down.
The usual advice is to "bury it", "hold it" or "suck it up" for some unspecified later time, but that was basically my old coping mechanism and It Does Not Work™ any more.
So I'd like the upgraded version of that. Whatever it is. Preferably a version that won't break or occasionally malfunction (we call those "Warning signs", kids) like the original one did.
Being able to feel joy/happiness. I really don't understand or know what those things are but everyone says it's wonderful and awesome. So It would be awesome to experience it at least once.
I did Brazilian Jiu Jitsu for a while untill after the 3rd injury I realised this isn't going to be good on the long run and I stopped doing it. However, it was long enough to see what a magical power that is so I'd say that being able to posses the skills of a black belt without going thru the training would be quite nice.
People don't realise how helpless you'll feel trying to wrestle with someone who knows what they're doing. Being bigger and stronger will not save you unless you get really lucky.
Deduction, at superhuman speed of course just like neos kung fu speed.
Deduce the optimal stock market traction to gain a big chunk of capital so I can than deduce the best proper services to provide, or find the proper projects
Having a strong speech skill. I'll have the silver tongue needed to talk and utilize etiquette to get what I need and want. Maybe even pick up someone too.
My first thought was also languages, but all the classes for a bachelors in nuclear engineering would be nice. Huge passion of mine and I can't really pursue a degree at this point in my life