I've never once in my waking life been without thought. I've always assumed it's impossible to actually be clear of thought. I've meditated and can hold a thought if need be, but never can I outright clear them away.
It's why I used to smoke weed until the panic attacks forced me to stop...
I just want to shut my brain off and I can't.
Have you tried drowning out every thought with extremely loud music? /s (don't do this tinnitus sucks and it's permanent)
Jokes on you, I was practically born with tinnitus and didn't know it wasn't normal until my mid-20's so child me normalized the fuck out of it!
Also, no thoughts head empty is only attained by the brain shutting off because its too tired to keep up any threads, but forgets to close the eyes/get ready to be off (aka go to bed).
I can sometimes get down to only one level of thought, but generally I have multiple tracks of thoughts going at once. It's probably why I'm primarily inattentive lol.
too much stimulation inside my brain, gotta shut down now
It takes immense practice, and I've found focusing on quiet music helps. It also helps if you like to practice Wake Induced Lucid Dreaming. You just ease into any thoughts that might come across.
The way I learned meditation is you're not going to be rid of every single thought, so instead focus on sounds, focus on your breathin, be nice to yourself if a thougt does occur, and then try to focus back onto nothingness/w.e works for you.
30 minutes a day has really helped me feel more in control, when I can remember atleast.
I read this list in a completely random order starting in the middle. ¯\(ツ)/¯
Forget zodiac signs, which point did you start reading at?
No eat, only hyperfocus. While I was eating some toast.
rainbow hungry. It was eyecatching and very relatable. Although i wouldn't call it hunger, just 'I am bored and must eat'
I think they forgot "drop everything to make an intricately colored and formatted list"
I wish I can talk endlessly like that. Sometimes it feels as if I am nonverbal..
If the conversation turns toward something I am interested in (or rather, what my brain is), I can blab until I feel self-conscious about talking too much. But I have pretty limited interests, so I am also mostly non-verbal.
Super hard to make relationships because I don't especially find people to be interesting, even if they often do interesting things. I want to care about shit like how someone's day was, but I just... Don't. Even if their thoughts and feelings matter to me. :/
Thin line between seeing yourself and catharsis, and hating one's self
Does the last one result in giving up after less than an hour for most people too?
The first two are why it's not a lie when I am asked what I am thinking and I respond with "nothing."
It really is nothing, or is so many things at once the only reasonable response is also "nothing," as I am not really thinking about anything at all, there's just a tornado of thoughts spinning around not being thought of.
So let’s say I check all those boxes; what then?
Congrats, you've won at ADHD.
Forgot about: No drink…only hyperfocus
Hey you, reading this, drink some goddam water.
