Don't know why you're being down voted. I understand how going outside and seeing others make you more depressed. It takes a couple of tries but there are some unpopulated trails that you could walk without seeing much people
Hey, congratulations! It takes an insane amount of insight to recognize when you have a problem, and an equal amount of courage to do something about it. Though you’ve stumbled, and probably will stumble again, it says a lot about you as a person that you have the persistence to continue trying. With those qualities, I would imagine you’ll succeed sooner rather than later, so keep it up! 😀