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A detective has been trying to interview me, and I have no fucking idea why. So that's been stressful. Remember: don't talk to police! Doesn't matter if you haven't committed any crimes, it's always a bad idea to talk. On the bright side, this dumbass detective can't even find where I live. I'm just living my life, not even trying to hide.
I read "Brainwyrms" after seeing Abigail mention it in the latest Philosophy Tube video. Turns out the book is absolutely fucked, far more extreme horror than I'm used to. I think I liked it (maybe?), though I was disgusted and uncomfortable the entire time I read it and was noticeably more spiral-y for days afterwards. Thoroughly unrecommendable, anyone you suggest it to would think you were born with a dick in your brain.
Bleh. It's fine, I guess. Passed out on my host's couch and got volunteered for DM duty despite no evidence that I can even keep up with such a game as a player @.@ Turns out I'm currently a lightweight, which I suppose is good to know. Dunno why but oh well.
Procrastinated looking for a new friendgroup so now I have none. Wwweeeellp. Those never last long 🤷
Played some KotOR 2. Am doing a blaster run, which is kinda neat actually. Am hoping to get a copy of the first game and playify that too.
Host continues to impress with tasty yet lazy cooking 😅 Some kinda fancy funky pasta this time. Nom! (And I'm gonna swipe the last of it from the fridge if it's still there when I extract myself from this blanket @.@ )
Not very eventy I guess. Oh, met more hunams and a small dog and a big dog and a small cat. Tried to steal small cat but it turns out everyone wants small cat so they don't tend to let them go 😅 Dogs like me, apparently. Am not dog person :| Hmph!
Distressing, but I have been reaching out far more than I used to, so I have far more support than I used to. I'm weathering far worse than what would make me crumble before. It gets better and all.
Had a mildly stressful week back at work after a vacation, but I am thankful to have a relatively low-stress job now overall. My worst day in this role is better than my best day at the last job.
Found a new way of applying my eyeliner that suits my face a lot better too, which is fun :)
Pretty insane... for better or worse. I came out to my grandma as bi, I hit a deer, my therapy copay finally kicked in, and my s/o popped a tire and then got into a car wreck.
In femme news, I've started doing my nails more and finally started a hair care routine! Also been trying stomach vacuums to get a better figure. I got to go swimming the other day; though I didn't get to buy a swimsuit, a bralette with trunks was super gratifying for me!
Pretty shitty, I got rejected for a promotion (to a position I'm more than qualified for) for the third time in a row. I feel like I'm going to be stuck destroying my body in a shitty, entry-level position so I can barely afford bills for the rest of my life.
My week was annoying. The WiFi wasn't working for eight days and the AC quit working as well. Not a pleasant expierence. Been pretty bored and aimless these days.