Feeling guilt after masturbation

So everytime I masturbated after coming out I feel so guilty afterwards. I also feel so annoyed at my ejaculate wether it's from after masturbating or after having a wet dream.

Is anyone else feeling the same?

This is also the reason why I've done it only like 3 times since the end of september (where I came out). Is that bottom dysphoria or just general dysphoria?