Now, I have a chance to work more on myself. I don’t think I was right for her or to have any sort of commitment. Plus, I couldn’t even appreciate the things that made her happy. I apologized but I felt so bad.
I just wanted to stop talking and leave her on read and not answer her calls but I felt too bad, but I don’t have to anymore now that we’re broken up. I don’t have to be there for her and commit to anything. I can play video games, watch TV, do what I want now.
I’m sad that we can’t call and watch TV together, but I was too unhealthy and I acknowledge that I need to work on myself. I love her but we can’t answer each other’s texts every second. I tried to be there for her, I just can’t. I hope she finds someone better and I can work on myself.
I won’t have to post about me being a shitty boyfriend because I’m no longer a boyfriend. Plus, I think she’s losing feelings for me. It will all work out in the end, it is what it is.
You're not a shitty boyfriend. Sometimes people are just incompatible. Work on yourself, but also seek out relationships with people that accept you for you, and aren't stressed about whether you respond immediately. It also helps to find someone who makes you want to immediately respond to their texts.